Contradicting Feelins

Okay its decided that im releasing my maid and sending my girl to let my mum look after...

Why i name this post as contradicting feelings is bcos some how or rather im feeling a little upset abt the fact that i have to let her go...

she had been a great help for the past months that she is with us... really glad and lucky to have her... but at this juncture i really cant afford to keep her...

Im so sorry...

I guess wat i can do for her now is to help her find another employer that hire her and treat her well.. and i guess a little compensation for her..

As mention from the start i guess ill help her to prepare Christmas pressie for her kids and family.. and maybe a little bonus for her...

oh my god i really dunno wat else i can say or what i shld say...

now wats running in my mind is how im gonna break the news to her and it mus b in the way that she wont b hurt... cos its really not completely her fault.. Omg im feeling crap...

i jus feel tt im a bad employer..

ok this entry is in a mess but this jus reflects how im feeling now... Sharks!!!

3rd Month with my Darling....

Its really nice to spend time with my girl...
really envy parents/mummies that spend most of their time with their kids...
taking part in every bits of their kids growing up...
i really hope that i wont miss out any of it...

Darling has yet to learn how to sit or crawl.. but she is slowly progressing... hopefully i can see her turning and crawling soon!!
Now she can lift her head when lied flat on the bed and she is learning to grab stuff...
holding her toys, pulling my hair and pinching ppl... lolx...

she is more n more playful... now she will stay awake in the day and seek for companion to play with... and in the night she can really sleep for long hrs...
Good for me n wilx cos we are wrking in the day...

gonna keep a close watch on her in order not to miss out any part of her growing up

Kaden Boy's 1st Birthday!!!!

Happy Belated Birthday Kaden!!!

Its the 1st time i brought Princess to attend a birthday party of her new friend...
lolx... it was a nice and sweet experience for me... and i guess for Princess too!! haha...

Met Gin & Jimmy there too... Congrates to them too cos they are now waiting for the arrival of their 2nd child in feb 2012 and its a Princess Too!!! Swee la!!

Seeing all young parents with their kids at the party is so cool!! its a different experience for me... Hopefully when its Princess's 1st Birthday i wont Boo Boo la... lolx..
Cant wait for Princess's 1st birthday!!! i should start planning for her soon!!! lolx... Kiasu mummy

Kah Hway's Wedding!!!

CONGRATULATIONS To Joanne & Shi Ming !!!
After a long run they finally got married... as in went through the customary!!!

God had been nice to the baby ger in our group.. spare her from major heartaches from relationships... Unlike most of us who went through betrayal and shits... So Happy to see the arrival of this day... Really Happy for her...

30th Oct 2011 marks the day of her married life and officially she is Mrs Foo... lolx...
attended the dinner with Hubbee at Carlton Hotel...
Its very nice of her to locate us near the aisle and near the stage, we can catch every moments on this special day...

Was seated with a bunch of old pals from sec sch... great pals, great jokes and wonderful couple... its a nice Sunday night out!!

Although am a little disappointed that i am unable to join in the fun throughout the day but still im very happy for the 2 of them...

Congratulations once again and baby girl my Princess Liz needs a playmate soon!!!

Deepest Condolences !!!

Met Fion on friday for Dinner and she told me that Charmaine had left...
Honestly i dun really know much about this girl but when Fion went into the details.. it really caught my mind...

Got the blog link from her and decide to start reading it... So on and off i will try to catch entry or so... It really touches my heart and tears just cant help but keep flowing down my cheeks...

Dear friends, you can catch and read about the Brave Charmaine here http://ourfeistyprincess.blogspot.com/

To Mummy Cyn:

I'm so Proud of you... you are a great mummy... you had already done what you can for your angel... Be strong, Jase still needs you... I'm sure that your little angel wants you to be happy even she is not ard physically...

She will always be there for you and Jase... Watching you from above...

To the strongest Charmaine:

You had done well... You had done better than any other one of us... Now you are already in good hands, please watch and bless your mummy and kor kor... They love you and you will always be on their minds...

We are all so proud of you.... In our hearts, you had won the battle against the monster...

Working Mom !!

After 3 months of maternity, i am back to work!!
Back to life and back to reality...

Some how or rather my aspiration changed...
i no longer wants to work and carve a career on my own...
now what i pray for is one day my hubby will do well so that i can be a housewife...
LOLX... some how being a housewife seems a joyous thing to me... so that i can spend more time with my dearest darling...

i use to feel that doing housework is so tough and boring...
staying at home looking after kids is such a waste of time...
but now its like a complete change in thinking...

i would rather live a simpler life in order to spend more time with my darling...
LV, Prada, Gucci use to be the pampering moments... the moment i know i can afford them or own them i feel that i had achieved something...
but now i rather NOT have all these items... how often i will really use them?
i would rather spend the money on my daughter and spending time with her, trying to teach her something give me the sense of achievement...

I admire those working moms that can cope and manage between their job and their kids...
Its tough, esp the long hours away from home... I'm thinking of my little one every moment in the office... How i wish i can jus head home to hug her...

Like hubby says, you can choose to live simple, enjoy the MOST basic life with no shopping, no luxury items, no extra spending, no savings or to have the extra income, extra cash to spend to pamper urself, ur spouse and ur kid, live a better life with better standard of living...

Its all individual choice....

Being First Time Mom

After Princess Is home its the start of our nightmare....

New borns are jus so hard to predict what they wan and hard to meet their expectations...
I can still remember the long nights i have to carry her trying to make her sleep...
It can be hours of rocking and singing to her... Argh

We tried ways and means to let her get use to sleeping in her baby cot...
Liz can sleep real well in the day on the rocker but when it comes to the night, she simply refuse to sleep... and even she sleeps in her baby cot that might only last her about 30 mins or so before the siren goes off and its the start of the long night...

Lucky enough hubby is there to help me to take shift.. but being first time mom, i cant help but got a little paranoid... esp when she starts whining or making noise... I will just jump out from my bed and head to her... but this did harm to myself cos bcos of too much movements, my c-sect wounds didnt recover.... it dragged another week before i can remove the stitches...

The pain is bearable but it bothering cos the pain jus hit me in shock.... i hate painkillers so its worse....

Hubby keeps reminding me not to get too stress or paranoid over the baby cos it might cause me post natal depression... the 1st week really kills... i started crying cos i cant handle my baby (she keeps crying and i dunno how to make her stop) and i gt very worried cos of my low milk supply... these stuff really occupy my mind throughout the day and i resort to all sorts of ways solving these 2 problems...

Hubby's health and work is also kinda affected cos of the sleepless nights... he is so use to sleep in a quiet environment and now he has to bear with the crying while i look after liz... and he dun get enough sleep... His asthma came back and his temper gt a little bad... but lucky we talk to each other alot... and eventually we work out some form of schedule so that both of us have enough sleep...

I realize communication is very important at this point... I guess it also help in bringing the couple closer...

Now being a mommy myself... i love my mom so much... thinking of the trouble and issues i had given her when i was a baby...

Mommy i love you!!!

Introducing Princess Liz!!

Officially Introduce Princess Liz Lam in my blog!!!
Looking after a new born is seriously no joke...
Every single thing have to take note and have to be careful....
From eating to sleeping to cleaning up...
every single detail...
Have to take note of alot of things...
- Her feeds (how much she drinks, how frequent is the feed)
- Her Sleep (How long she sleeps, her posture, room temp)
- Her pee & poo (how many times a day, wats the color of her stools)
- Her clothes (wat she wears, swaddle her etc)
and the the list goes on and on and on.....

No joke man... esp the first 2 weeks, her eating cycle, sleeping cycle etc is all haywire....
Nothing seems to be right, nothing seems ok... Super tense up...
But luckily things got better as times goes by....





Loving her more and more as the day passes!!!

Delivering Journey !!!

This entry was suppose to be updated at least 2 months ago...
This also means that it has been more than 2 months since i last updated my blog.... OMG!!
Am so occupied and entertained by my newborn Princess for the past few months...

Delivery Journey wasnt easy for me i guess... bcos i cant deliver my precious through natural birth... Have to go through c-sect....

3rd Aug
Due for my weekly checkup as its the last few weeks to my due date... (EDD : 8 Aug 2011)
Sad fact i cant have a National Day baby... according to the gynae i will have to induce my baby on the very day... which means i have to admit into hospital in the afternoon...

This is how my tummy bloats to before i head to the hospital...
Luckily i had my stuff all prepared, went home for a GOOD bath and had a sinful meal before hubby drives me to Mount Alvernia...
'Check-In' with loads of Barangs prepared for my 3 days stay at the 6 star hotel... Weird thg is they immediately put me in the delivery suit... scare me... cos to my understanding they will only bring us to the delivery suit when i am all ready to give birth... but surprising its like if they have available rooms, they will 'upgrade' your stay at no additional cost... lolx...

Good this way too cos hubby gets to have a little place on his own to rest while i'm going through the waiting and contraction...

The nurse inserted the pills for induction at about 5pm in the afternoon and afterwhich to me its purely boredom... i fel no pain, no irritation, literally no signs of delivering at all...
I can even Camwhore, explore the delivery suits and visit the other mummies waiting for delivery...

10pm is the time my nightmare starts... 1st contraction pain felt... and its also the time hubby got me food from J8 cos i hate the junk that they serve... Hubby bought Pizza for me but i cant really enjoy cos of the contraction...

1st tear from contraction hits me at ard 12 midnight... and stubborn me refuse to ask for epidural thinking that it will wear off and wont last till i deliver.... madness... i screamed for help at 1am cos its really unbearable... according to the nurse they can only give me epidural if i dilate till at least 3 cm... lucky bt the time my gynae came, epi can be given...

I can only rem Dr Chan walking in and out and they gave me my dosage of epi which ended my long night... Epidural is heaven at that time... i doze off shortly after that and hubby also manage to catch some sleep...

8am in the morning my gynae came and do a round of check and according to her i will be ready for delivery ard 12noon (4Aug)... the wait starts to drag and since midnight, darling's heartbeat weakens on and off... around 11am the nurse detected tt Precious's heartbeat is slowly down... therefore she called for my gynae... Gynae came back to 12 to deliver precious but my dearest refuse to slide down the path, so no choice, i have to c-sect...

I have fear towards operating theatre, towards knifes and stuff on me... i wasnt sure at that point and i started to panic.. i started shivering... Thank God i have my hubby by me.. before they push me to the operating theatre, hubbe said 'JIA YOU' to me... i cant really hear him cos he is outside the delivery suit waiting.. they dun allow him in as they are preparing me for the operation...

Hubby is a brave man to me... he seek for permission from my gynae to go into the operating theatre with me... it really calms me down seeing him sitting by my side when i'm lying on the operating platform... i can see that he is gan jiong too alothough he claimed that he is not... My gynae gt to remind him to take camera and waited for him to pick up the camera before the start the operation.. lolx

Throughout the process, hubby keeps telling me the progress and what are the docs and nurses doing... to me is like WTF!! lolx...

The whole operation is smooth despite the fact that they have to make 2 attempts to pull precious out... lolx... she refuse to come out even i go through c-sect...

Princess Liz is born!!! Weighing 3.162kg 51cm long... lolx...

My strong little baby girl...

I was confined on bed for 2 days due to the operation... and the best is, NO FOOD & DRINKS!!

on the 3rd day when i first got out of bed... i puked like mad... the puking is madness... initially i tot its the side effect of epi, but according to the doc its because i lied on bed for too long without movement thats y i will puke the moment i got down from bed...

Discharged on the 4th day together with Princess... lucky she has no signs of jaundice... we can go home together!!

It marks the start of Little Lam Family!!!!

Im On Maternity Leave

Hello All!!!

im officially on Maternity Leave and this is already the 3rd week.. lolx... Wondering why it took me so long to post an entry when im suppose to be the most 'ENG' person... lolx.. laziness is the thg lor... wat else can it be right...

I am already on my 39 weeks of pregnancy and bb is gonna arrive within these few days...

So Damn excited abt it but at the same time i am kinda worried too cos according to the gynae my little baby is not really that little... lolx...

It simply means that my baby is kinda huge... as per last week her estimated weight is at least 3.5kg... hmmmp..... i just wonder how am i gonna push her out...

Recently whats running through my mind is whether i shld still continue with the plan of natural birth or i shld change to c-sect.. cos i fear that fact that i will have to go through emergency c-sect... the thought of it is enough to kill me...

My tummy now is damn huge and baby's movement is getting more and more, stronger and stronger.. it is literally like an earthquake in ur tummy... u can see the tummy surface moving and shifting... lolx... jus like mother earth shifting the earth plates that cause earthquakes.. lolx...

okie update of my activities for the past few weeks...

1st week of leave is boring... i am stuck at home except friday which i get to go out the whole day with Chelle for shopping... The mummies head out to get baby stuff... lolx... didnt really buy much though cos was really unsure what to get...

2nd week is better... almost whole week occupied... cos i keep running home.. lolx.. went out shopping on wed and friday with 2 mummies seperately.... shopping for baby stuff again...

it seems like i only know and only wants to buy baby stuff recently... hmmm... mother nature acting on me again??? lolx

This week is okie so far... had a great day out with Alodie although i spent quite abit... Time out with family and own sibling is still the best la... nuttin beats it...

Oh ya oh ya... Mummy Angela needs a new wallet... yet to source for a nice one.... hmmm... gonna make Daddy Lam buy as a 'Push' Present... lolx...

Now thgs for baby are all prepared, jus waiting for the arrival of the little one...

when will that day be???

*Sneak Preview to her decorated cot... lolx*

Updates!!

Had been so long since i last blogged... lolx...

cos my work is no long as free as before.. but soon i will be back to my eng eng lifestyle as im starting my maternity leave in mid july....

Completed 1 event with TEC for the past 2 weeks and next week is my 2nd event... after that will be closing report n stuff and i am done...

Appraisal scheduled on the 29th June, Good Luck Angela, hopefully i can secure the job and my paid leave to accompany my dearest princess at home..

Liz is already at her 32 weeks le... tt means 8 mths... very soon she will be out saying 'HI' to all... haha... cant wait for that day...

I had moved back to chai chee for the pass 2 weeks!! WeEeEeeEeeE!!!

Honestly i dunno how to describe that feeling, i can only say... I FEEL WONDERFUL!!

and honestly i thk i shld frequest back home... haha... will blog abt this one day...

Hmm... good thgs dun last, im will be shifting home next weekend or so... haiz...

im so gonna miss home once again... how i wish i dun have to go back to hougang...

i miss everyone here everything here...

Misery of a a married women...

My Tummy at 29th Week... so can you imagine how it looks like now?? LOLx

26 Weeks Pregnant

Jus a entry to scare myself.. lolx...
took pics of my tummy at 26 weeks....







XOXOXOXOXO

Im Not Really Happy

Ok i did what i wanted to do recently...
That is to walk out of the house in the middle of the night to get some time alone and some air to breathe...

some things are there yet we have to act as though its invisible...
im not the kind of person tt can try to slowly forget, ill rather tackle it and solve it, talk about it..
i like dealing with things the hard way...

i left home without him realising.. tts how deep he fell into his sleep...
Reached home abt an hr later... lousy shit... wanted to go for a longer time... but my FIL in awake... dun wan him to be worried... the time alone is not enough.. but at least better than none...

i feel like moving home for a short period of time.. i kinda missing home... dunno y.. at times i jus feel tt at my current place, no one is on my side... worse is my hubbee dun even understand me... T_T to my hubbee everything is jus small issue, if i have any request he will try to give in to me as much as possible, if there is any problem between us he will try to avoid or to give in to me as much as he can... but still... to me... problem is still there... not solved... i know he is trying very hard... i'm sorry to be the cause of ur pain.. but im jus not happy...

Wish i can learn to act blind to alot of issues.. hmmm... is this life?? or shld i ask is this married life???

Long Weekend Update!!!

This long weekend of Labour Day is relatively good... almost everyday is fully made use of...
Precious time spent with Hubbee, walking ard, shopping, plan for our home renovation etc...
hmmm... quite proud of ourselve...

Spent a little over the weekend...
Hubbee finally got me my LONG BELATED Birthday Present... lolx..
but in return i got him something also... cos i remember owing him a present for last yr christmas... lolx... SUPER LONG OVERDUE!! lolx..

haha... his carrier is soOOo small compared to mine... =p size doesnt matter... its the item inside that matters...

Welcome my New Love home!!! my Speedy.... and hubbee's card holder... hee...

Unstable Mind & Emotions

I dunno if all or even most of the pregnant women feels it but i feel rather unstable mentally...
not bcos of the baby or anythg thats related but more of personal kind of feeling..

i am getting a little more sensitive that usual,
a little more emotional than usual,
a little more petty than usual,
a little more particular than usual...

hmmmm... i know this isnt good but for some reasons it jus became part of me and its something that i cant control.

Very often i feel like tearing and i feel like just being alone...

recently im starting to feel the strain between my relationship with Wilx...
i dunno what is the main cause of it.. but alot of times we dun see eye to eye to issues and we will start our arguement and eventually leads to him being mad and me crying...
it had been kinda hurtful and to a certain extend tt i even though of running away..

one of the night last week, i even thought of running away frm home... cos i wanna be alone and i dun wanna see him or hear him... i dunno y... the arguement is not a very big issue but i just feel hurt...

It seems like its harder to understand him.. i dunno what he wants and wat is he thking abt...
alot of thgs tt need his attention he simply ignores... and for thgs tt is not the main concern, he is so into it.. just like how i always complain, he cares for his liverpool and the matches more than me lor... haiz...

its less than 3 mths away frm the arrival of Liz and there are still tonnes of thgs not done... Oh My!! how i wish i can do it on his behalf... than thgs might expedite a little...

his asthma is getting frm bad to worse... jus hope that he recover faster and all these nonsense will stop ba...

Update on Princess Liz

Liz's Mummy is now officially 25 weeks 1 Day Pregnant..
Liz is more n more active and gettin more and more obvious...
kinda like obstructing and restricting what her mummy wears...

Watched a documentary on Baby in womb that explains the different stages of growth and changes that occur in the womb...
By now Liz shld b able to hear me clearly as she is in my tummy ar and she will also hear male voices better as compared to female...
this is due to the frequency of male's voice.. i thk bcos their tone is much lower than female...
Nvm as long as she can hear me im more than happy...

Her senses are building up.. by now she can already feel out touches, hear us, and even taste what im eating... how amazing right... hmmm... gonna go back and finish the show by tonight...

Preview of my growing tummy... my tummy is still relatively small compared to others at the same stage... i guess its bcos my baby is a princess ba... at this stage i can already feel her weight, as in the weight of my tummy and my legs (esp knee) back is alr aching and givin me prob sleepin in the night...
Went to the baby fair last sunday... haha... greedy mummy got some freebies from the fair.. These arent jus free gifts okie.. we paid more than 2k before we get these stuff... lolx
We signed up for the StemCord for Liz... that means they will be collecting her cord blood the moment she is born... hmmm... this cost us a bomb... but both me n wilx feel tt we shld do this for her at least it acts as a backup plan when help is needed..

The thg that touches me the most is, regardless how tight our financial situation is, Wilx is always very supportive when providing for Liz. Initially i only want to sign up for the 1 yr plan jus in case at birth there might b emergency need and we might not be able to afford to continue supporting the Cord blood to be kept longer.. then once Liz stablize after 1 or 2 yrs we can stop the plan. But Wilx signed up for the 5 yrs plan straight without second thought and on the way home he even told me that he intend to keep it as long as he could. Until the day when we transfer the ownership back to Liz when she turns 21. It can be a gift for her future and who knows this gift might safe Liz, Me, Wilx or even our next kid in future... Awwww~~~

We got some Blankets, Sweddle, rompers and socks for Liz at the fair too... and guess what, we bought the size for 3-6mths instead of 0 - 3mths cos Wilx said that "What makes you think our baby will be that small to fit into 0-3mths clothings" lolx... honestly true la... those 0-3 mths clothes are so small tt i thk any baby wearing will make it look very tight fitting.. lolx



Gonna buy more stuff... looking at the shopping list im so gonna faint...
Gonna be broke real soon buying all these stuff...

My Not so Happy 26th Birthday!!!

hmm.. decided not to post any pics for this entry cos afterall like wat i indicated on the title...
Its my NOT so HappY 26th Birthday...

For this birthday my Dream Birthday Didnt come true...
my Dream time spent wif my Hubbee didnt come true....
My dream Birthday Present didnt appear...
My Dream Roses didnt appear...
My dream Splendid Day Out didnt happened...
So what can i say or what i should say...

hmmm... not angry abt it cos Hubbee is sick..
but jus cant help feelin a little disappointed ba...
He made an effort to accompany for breakfast at DOME & High Tea @ Goodwood Park
so i guess i shld be contented and not complain further ba...

A dream i guess is still better off as a Dream...

Happy Belated Birthday Angela!!
Be Happy!!!

*Random*

I'm Just a Big Fat Woman who Munches NON-STOP!!! *Mum Mum MuM*

Peek-a-boooo

A Peek to my Princess's Side profile... haha... Got the 3D scan during my checkup on tues... cant help but keep looking at my little princess.. she never fail to bring the smile on me... lolx... Sharing with you guys my joy and excitmemt... *Irritated, blogspot dun allow me to rotate... irritating!!!

After so many yrs!!

Just came across this comment that needs my approval and im shocked...

Its written as "I'm grateful and appreciates what you had done for me all these years, i understood that being my other half wasnt easy and had changed me in some way and thankful wasnt good enough to describe though i always dun express myself in speech but all is kept well deep in my heart. " By E on 8/4/2008 Its had been almost 3 yrs... and only till today then i saw this msg from him. i'm dumbfounded.. I dunno what i should say or what i can say now.. Thanks, I know who you are and deep from my heart i wish u all the best and thanks =)

Pregnant @ 21st Week & Introducing Princess Liz

This is my 21 week 2 days being Pregnant and finally my baby decided to show herself.. Yes, Its a baby ger... Our Princess... Her Daddy had confirmed her name as Liz, so she shall be our Princess Liz!!! This name is selected among the list of the 1 syllable names... Other options are like Val, Wynn ("wind") lolx... all sorts of furnie names... Chosen One! Liz Lam!!! lolx... Wilx is super happy to know tt its a ger cos he loves baby gers... but for me, actually i prefer a boy cos Wilx is the Only Son, Only Grandson, so if its a boy at least ill have peace from his granny.. but then, Princess are more lovely... so since decided that Its Princess Liz, We shall love her and await patiently for the arrival of our gift...

Tummy is starting to grow bigger n bigger, more clothes out of the wardrobe and more new clothes going in!! lolx.. i am growing out of my clothes le.. haha...

the above pic is taken by wilx, he claims tt he likes the pic.. lolx Taken on my own.. wanna capture the growth of my tummy.. lolx...

After the checkup at Paragon we went to get our 1st buy for Princess Liz... Her Milk Bottle Sterallizer & Warmer... Its on OFFER and its a great deal... its the 3rd time we went there and finally to get it... Did some survey on price and this load of stuff cost us $188 which is cheaper then getting it elsewhere...

Gt it at Taka with GREAT effort cos we decide to go on the last day of fair which we tot is 28 Mar 2011, and guess what, when we reach there, they are tearing down. the fair ended on the 27th instead... Faintz... lucky we went up to the bb department and found the last set there... haha... So happy... Well Done Uncle Lam & Auntie Tan!!!

Baby Shower Gift

Received a box of baby shower chocolate from my colleague Harry!!
It from Gobi... So CuteeEeEEeee...

www.gobi.com.sg

Congrates Harry, wishing your baby girl Happy 1mth may she be healthy and pretty all the time..

Life as a Pregnant Woman

Am 20 weeks 4 Days Pregnant...
Baby is starting to grow and show himself/herself inside my tummy...

Life as a pregnant woman is kinda boring.. besides eating and sleeping nuttin seems to be my main concern now..
Cravings seem to have came back since it stopped few weeks back and now i will tend to wake up in the middle of the night feeling hungry and searching for food...
OMG!! gonna control b4 i put on too much weight...
Hubby had been mad with me for waking up hunting for food.. haha... but no choice...

Giddiness attacked me these 2 weeks.. on and off ... the feeling is bad...
Mum is worried cos she is afraid tt my low blood sugar might affect the baby... but according to doc, everythg is ok and its fine... =)
Found some new loves recently... but cant overdose on all these...
Royce Chocolate... The only one that is non-alcoholic... haha

Chili stingray, from Bedok south market... My FAVOURITE la!!! since im a teenager i had been loving it...

Seaweed... this is a new love... and freaking hooked to it... i can finish 1 whole pack in a few hrs... keep munching non stop... lolx...

Dressing up is now my new pain... i'm growing out of most of my clothes... so seems that i have to replenish the no of stuff in my new wardrobe.. hehe... Bought 2 new Maxi dresses at a Offer Price... Weeee...

Love maxi dresses... this is the love that shld b able to stay wif me throughout my pregnancy.. haha...

Lucky me... hubby just called saying that he will pick me up frm wrk n send me to meet the gers later... WeeeeeEEEE... *happy*

What a day!!

I had decided not to post new pics of my baby after several attempts to upload the pic in the direction i wan it to be.. Stupid...

Okay... Topic for the day will be how will you feel working in a company for months with nothing on your plate for you to do...
Put it in simple will be, you are paid to come in at 9am, sit in front of your lappy act busy (by doing nothing and suppose to avoid to much of facebooking and msn) Lunch at 12pm, 1pm continue to act, leave at 6pm OTD!! you get paid on a monthly basis, fixed amount..

honestly, when u thk abt it... sounds shiok ar... but when u r in it.. u feel like killing yourself... haha... just like how i am now.. almost bored to death.. i am living a life of a pig in office, come in at 930am eat breakfast till abt 1030, tibit a little, munch a little, then lunch at 12pm, buy fruits & tibits back. 1pm sit back in front of my lappy munching fruits, abt 4 - 5 packs per day okie.. super healthy okay... 3pm start munching tibits again... 430pm head down to buy a drink or/and some light snacks like bao, lo mai kai etc... end work at 6pm SHARP!!

Anyone keen to take a job like tt or like to exchange?? lolx...
honestly, no motivation, no morale, no mood... dunno y i come work also... i guess its jus for my monthly salary ba...

i shall bear with it and reconsider after i give birth... dun wanna waste my maternity benefits...
ARGH!! i need entertainment!!

My Signs of Pregnancy

Hmmm... just wanna share with you guys how i realised/suspected that im pregnant...

All women are different but i guess there will be similarity in a way or another..

I'm a Smoker, smoking had been part of me, part of my daily life..

when the day cigg is irritating you and the thought/smell/every single puff makes you feel like puking... hmmm... something is wrong...

I thought its normal cos there's spotting, i thought period came, the only thing different is that the flow is a little too little, 1st day's flow kinda like day 5/6 (mine is usually 7 days period, 6 weeks cycle)...

You are not too early to notice these signs and to find out that you are pregnant. All this symptoms hit me on the 6 weeks after my last period which is norm...

different ppl have different symptoms and signs... i'll be curious to know how i will notice/suspect the arrival of my next baby. =)

2nd Date with Our Precious!!!

29 Dec 2010
Feeling: Worried
Location of Precious: Left
Size: 23mm
Stage of Pregnancy: 8.7 Weeks
This visit to Dr Chan is kind of worrying as various incidents occurred within the last 2 weeks...
Some random kids accidentally hit my tummy and cause slight bleeding, trying to control diet end up gastric, slight pain at tummy area...

so this visit my main intention is to get assurance her, telling me that my baby is ok, everything is fine... this visit was on appointment basis but the waiting time is still as disaster as the previous. we waited for almost 3 hrs before our turn... i realize im getting relatively impatient recently, i guess its due to the hormones change.

Our second touch with our baby was good, his heartbeat is faster and stronger comparing to the 1st date. He had also grown by 20mm as compared to the last. wooo... in just 2 weeks, my little precious had grown more than 5 times the size. at this rate its going, im gonna see him soon... *grinz* 8 more months....

So glad everything regarding baby is doing fine, the only things thats not doing good is the mummy, ME. Im having flu and i dare not take any medication as im unsure if its suitable for me to comsume at this point. Lucky i manage to get some flu tablets frm Dr Chan and according to her if fever occurs, its ok for me to take the normal Panadol. Shoooo~~~ at least i know what to you if fever really hits...

This visit to the gynae was fully accompanied by my hubby-to-be and We are sure of what we want and what we going to do next. (alot of things happened in the last 2 weeks. For more details can refer to Mummy Angela's own blog. )
I'm starting to feel the excitement being a mummy.

1st Date with Our Previous

14 Dec 2010, 1st Visit to my Gynae at Hougang, Dr Chan
Feeling: Scary, Fear
Location of Precious: Left
Size: 4mm
Stage of Pregnancy: 6.1 Weeks
This is my first visit to the Gynae with and without my Bf/Hubby-to-be.
Why do i say with and without, i went alone and he came to join me at the later time.
Reason, need to run to a GP to get MC for his reservist in order to accompany me for this visit.

Reach the clinic at about 11am after Fion called to help me get an appointment for the visit. Dr Chan is also the Gynae that Fion visits when she is carrying Kayden.
The feeling when i first stepped into the clinic was horrible. All the women in there are all seated down wearing loose clothings with Tummies bloated like a giant balloon which might burst anytime... they look dangerous.... comparing to all of them, me as a young mum i really dunno where i stand and what i should do.

Wilx managed to reach there before its my turn. honestly the first date with our baby is odd... why is it so?
i guess its because i'm unsure of the situation at that point and unsure of whats coming up next. The only thing i am sure is that when Dr Chan ask me " Have you two decided to keep the baby?" our immediate answer is "YES"
I dunno why i said Yes although i am still unsure at that point but i guess Yes is the answer that is pleasing to everyone.


The process of the scan was okie just that its a little different comparing to visiting a GP... Baby's heartbeat wasnt really fast but it was clear enough for me and wilx to hear. and through the monitor, we can see our baby, which was only 4mm..

After the scan, Dr Chan did a calculation base on my last period to see when's the EDD of my baby.. Its 8 Aug 2011... Hopefully a National Day Baby...
Doc said that Baby is healthy just that its relatively unstable due to the bleeding. I will have to be extra careful and have to monitor any spotting tat occurs..

A little Tip from Pris who just gave birth to a lovely princess. Wear a pantyliner through your first trimester if bleeding ever occur so that any spotting can be noticed and monitored constantly. Bleeding is not a rare thing to happen during the first trimester, it happen to some pregnant women. We just have to take note that if it really occurs, monitor the situation and report to the Gynae if it worsen or prolonged for too long.

This is a delayed post, will update regarding our 2nd Date and also the various events that happened during this period of time.

Life Experience

In Life different people experience different things..
what you went through will craft out your character, your thinking and You!
but this might or might not be true...

there are people who decides to believe and live the life as their experience taught them..
but some will challenge and hope to find a different way out..
there is no right or wrong...

as long as there is no regrets, you made the right choice, chose the right path...

To me i feel tt as long as i have a backup plan for myself. im safe..
i dun care if the path i chose is right or wrong, as long as i know what i am doing and how i should support myself if anything fails, i am safe..

May all my family, friends and love ones have a safe and peaceful journey in life =)

Starting the March

February 2011 ending in a sweet & joyous moment for me..
But my March started of with a pain in our hearts..

March 08 2011, Popo Left the world early in the morning at 0822hrs...
received the news via phone call frm my dad..
Am shocked and stunned by the news.. dad gave alot of instructions and through the phone i can feel that he is unsure of what to do and he is on the verge of breaking down.. but lucky daddy is strong.. he can still thk and make arrangements systematically..

went to NYP to locate my sis as she is uncontactable... it took us 3 hrs to find her and get her out of sch...

we didnt go to the wake straight as im instructed to head home straight to do some preparation... have to tie a red cloth ard my tummy with an ang bao and some "shi Liu'' leaf
this is to protect my bb...

went there only in the late afternoon when most of the thgs are settled..
i was shocked when dad informed me tat he will be the one paying for the funeral...
its like "arent they contributing?? what happened to the other two???"
i came to know that the other 2 went to Popo's home empty handed and empty pocket.. When mummy approached them, they simply say "i got no $$".. OMG!! WTH!!!
its not like my daddy is rich and owns gold mines lor... my grandfather's wake yrs back the same thgs happened and now still the same shit... they are taking my dad for granted...

nvm... pay shall be it... throughout the wedding comments fly ard non stop.. asking my dad to give tips to workers, to ppl, pay money.. even a $2 pack of rice they will claim from dad.. and guess what, they claim their meals too... they tot my dad is some kinda welfare organization lor..
OMG... i dun understand how can they claim themselves to be popo's kids... the only thg the can afford to pay is ciggerattes and alcohol... WTF!!!

so insensible old ppl.. even we kids know what is right and what's wrong lor..
the most stunning act is that they can ask my dad regardin splitting of assets at the end of the funeral.. WTH WTF!!! Popo had been in the home for almost 10yrs with no savings and all funeral expenses is frm dad, now they asking abt assets...

I dun understand what are they thking at that point, arent they ashame of their own behaviour..
sickening human beings.. ugly human beings...

now everythg is over, just hope that popo will R.I.P and bring better luck & Health to daddy and mummy...

Wedding Pics...

Finally Done with editing of my wedding Pics.. haha...
Simply hate those done by the Bridal Shop. So i decide to do it on my own.. lol..

After seein what i had done for myself.. i feel so much better..

Loves~~~