Monday, December 27, 2010

Mix Feelings

Wedding Updates...
Date: 27 Feb 2011 (Confirmed)
Venue: Swissotel Merchant Court (Confirmed)
Bridal Shop & Shoot (Confirmed)
Wedding Band (Purchased)

Seems that the big items for the wedding had already been confirmed now left with the misc items to follow up with... haiz... seems easy ar..
haha... not at all...

i'm having alot of headaches making arrangements with my parents and also hearing alot of funny stuff from wilx parents... haiz
i guess this is part and parcel of wedding planning, part and parcel of life...

why i put the title as mixed feeling?

i thought all brides should be excited about the big day about all the upcoming customaries to be completed and follow up??

No im not at all.. i dun feel excited, in fact im getting worried as the day draws nearer...

i was sitting on my way trying to slp 1/2 hr ago and alot of memories start flowing through my mind... the memories i had with this family of mine, all my family members, my dog and every part of the hse of my room... all sorts of memories starts flooding my mind...

suddenly i have the urge to cry... cant imagine i'm gonna move out from this family into another family and create a new family of my own... its exciting but i'm so gonna miss my current family who had showered me with love and care for the last 25yrs... the thought of leaving them is really hurtful... i'm so gonna miss them, miss my home, miss everyone everything in this current home of mine...

i know this is a part that everyone have to go through and will go through as they grow up and move to another stage in life.... but i jus cant bear to leave them...

Hope that after marriage, after i have my own kid, wilson will allow me to come back often and at times have a short stay here... Hope he can understand that this is the place i love the most and supports me the most....

I Sincerely hope so....

Thursday, December 16, 2010

New Stage in Life

Had been a long long time since i last blogged...
what had i been busy with? lolx
dating with my bf cum husband...

alot of things had changed during this period of time...

i got myself a new job and i am out of job again,
then i got myself another job and now i'm jobless again,
my bf proposed and planned to get married in 2-3yrs time,
almost 2 mths later we have to push forward everything....

the latest date for the wedding will have to be in march and hopefully can do it by end feb...
alot of things ahead for me and alot of things for me to work on...

once again i'm at the stage of dunno whats next

*Confused*