Summary of My 1st Week of Misery

The week seem to past very slowly...
Its only a week yet it felt like thgs happened just yesterday...
maybe this is all because the wound still felt fresh and the pain had never a moment left me...

I had been trying to talk to him almost everyday for the first few days.. but i had kinda gave up the idea.. cos he seem very firm on his decision.. and he seem to be have already decided to shut me off frm his heart and life...
its really painful for me to know this fact and also to admit it...
i had been trying to accept.. but.. not very successful...
i am still trying... still trying...

for the past week i had spoke to countless people..
met wif lots and lots of friends...
then i realise alot of friends really loves me...
thanks so much....

Bestie said that i am a late bloomer... this kind of thgs had already happened to alot of ppl way back and they had already mastered the skill of survival..
and it seem that me the late bloomer is oni a newbie.. lol... silly me..

i just spoke to him hrs ago.. very sad to realise that he is still standing firm on his decision..
and the worse is to realise that he is making use of this opportunity to really enjoy himself...
enjoy his time wif his guys and go to places that i really HATE him to go...
at this stage i have no other choice but to see him go...
argh... if this is a stage of growing up for men..
I really have doubt whether men are really mature creatures.. they dun even know wats moral and wats responsibility towards themselevs and other ppl...

me now sitting in front of my lappy trying to blog tis out..
and in my mind i am thking of him having fun wif his guys and other gers outside...
torturing...
WHY AM I THE ONE SUFFERING!!!

this is how stupid some women can be..
and i have to say.. its how stupid ANgela is!!!
cant imagine that...

recentli felt very related to this song 傻瓜 by 温岚
its telling how i am now.. being silly.. being stupid...

其实他做的坏事我们都懂
没有什么不同
眼光闪烁 暧昧流动
闭上眼当作听说

其实别人的招数我们都懂
没有什么不同
故作软弱 撒娇害羞
只是有一点别扭

傻瓜也许单纯地懂
爱得没那么做作
爱上了我不保留

傻瓜 我们都一样
被爱情伤了又伤
相信这个他不一样
却又再一次受伤

傻瓜 我们都一样
受了伤却不投降
相信付出会有代价
代价只是一句傻瓜

其实别人的招数我们都懂
没有什么不同
故作软弱 撒娇害羞
只是有一点别扭

傻瓜也许单纯地懂
爱得没那么做作
爱上了我不保留

傻瓜 我们都一样
被爱情伤了又伤
相信这个他不一样
却又再一次受伤

傻瓜 我们都一样
受了伤却不投降
相信付出会有代价
代价只是一句傻瓜

傻瓜 我们都一样
被爱情伤了又伤
相信这个他不一样
却又再一次受伤

傻瓜 我们都一样
受了伤却不投降
相信付出会有代价
代价只是一句傻瓜

really need a source of rescue...
can someone help and remove him frm my mind and my heart..
someone please...