Deepest Condolences !!!

Met Fion on friday for Dinner and she told me that Charmaine had left...
Honestly i dun really know much about this girl but when Fion went into the details.. it really caught my mind...

Got the blog link from her and decide to start reading it... So on and off i will try to catch entry or so... It really touches my heart and tears just cant help but keep flowing down my cheeks...

Dear friends, you can catch and read about the Brave Charmaine here http://ourfeistyprincess.blogspot.com/

To Mummy Cyn:

I'm so Proud of you... you are a great mummy... you had already done what you can for your angel... Be strong, Jase still needs you... I'm sure that your little angel wants you to be happy even she is not ard physically...

She will always be there for you and Jase... Watching you from above...

To the strongest Charmaine:

You had done well... You had done better than any other one of us... Now you are already in good hands, please watch and bless your mummy and kor kor... They love you and you will always be on their minds...

We are all so proud of you.... In our hearts, you had won the battle against the monster...

Working Mom !!

After 3 months of maternity, i am back to work!!
Back to life and back to reality...

Some how or rather my aspiration changed...
i no longer wants to work and carve a career on my own...
now what i pray for is one day my hubby will do well so that i can be a housewife...
LOLX... some how being a housewife seems a joyous thing to me... so that i can spend more time with my dearest darling...

i use to feel that doing housework is so tough and boring...
staying at home looking after kids is such a waste of time...
but now its like a complete change in thinking...

i would rather live a simpler life in order to spend more time with my darling...
LV, Prada, Gucci use to be the pampering moments... the moment i know i can afford them or own them i feel that i had achieved something...
but now i rather NOT have all these items... how often i will really use them?
i would rather spend the money on my daughter and spending time with her, trying to teach her something give me the sense of achievement...

I admire those working moms that can cope and manage between their job and their kids...
Its tough, esp the long hours away from home... I'm thinking of my little one every moment in the office... How i wish i can jus head home to hug her...

Like hubby says, you can choose to live simple, enjoy the MOST basic life with no shopping, no luxury items, no extra spending, no savings or to have the extra income, extra cash to spend to pamper urself, ur spouse and ur kid, live a better life with better standard of living...

Its all individual choice....

Being First Time Mom

After Princess Is home its the start of our nightmare....

New borns are jus so hard to predict what they wan and hard to meet their expectations...
I can still remember the long nights i have to carry her trying to make her sleep...
It can be hours of rocking and singing to her... Argh

We tried ways and means to let her get use to sleeping in her baby cot...
Liz can sleep real well in the day on the rocker but when it comes to the night, she simply refuse to sleep... and even she sleeps in her baby cot that might only last her about 30 mins or so before the siren goes off and its the start of the long night...

Lucky enough hubby is there to help me to take shift.. but being first time mom, i cant help but got a little paranoid... esp when she starts whining or making noise... I will just jump out from my bed and head to her... but this did harm to myself cos bcos of too much movements, my c-sect wounds didnt recover.... it dragged another week before i can remove the stitches...

The pain is bearable but it bothering cos the pain jus hit me in shock.... i hate painkillers so its worse....

Hubby keeps reminding me not to get too stress or paranoid over the baby cos it might cause me post natal depression... the 1st week really kills... i started crying cos i cant handle my baby (she keeps crying and i dunno how to make her stop) and i gt very worried cos of my low milk supply... these stuff really occupy my mind throughout the day and i resort to all sorts of ways solving these 2 problems...

Hubby's health and work is also kinda affected cos of the sleepless nights... he is so use to sleep in a quiet environment and now he has to bear with the crying while i look after liz... and he dun get enough sleep... His asthma came back and his temper gt a little bad... but lucky we talk to each other alot... and eventually we work out some form of schedule so that both of us have enough sleep...

I realize communication is very important at this point... I guess it also help in bringing the couple closer...

Now being a mommy myself... i love my mom so much... thinking of the trouble and issues i had given her when i was a baby...

Mommy i love you!!!

Introducing Princess Liz!!

Officially Introduce Princess Liz Lam in my blog!!!
Looking after a new born is seriously no joke...
Every single thing have to take note and have to be careful....
From eating to sleeping to cleaning up...
every single detail...
Have to take note of alot of things...
- Her feeds (how much she drinks, how frequent is the feed)
- Her Sleep (How long she sleeps, her posture, room temp)
- Her pee & poo (how many times a day, wats the color of her stools)
- Her clothes (wat she wears, swaddle her etc)
and the the list goes on and on and on.....

No joke man... esp the first 2 weeks, her eating cycle, sleeping cycle etc is all haywire....
Nothing seems to be right, nothing seems ok... Super tense up...
But luckily things got better as times goes by....





Loving her more and more as the day passes!!!

Delivering Journey !!!

This entry was suppose to be updated at least 2 months ago...
This also means that it has been more than 2 months since i last updated my blog.... OMG!!
Am so occupied and entertained by my newborn Princess for the past few months...

Delivery Journey wasnt easy for me i guess... bcos i cant deliver my precious through natural birth... Have to go through c-sect....

3rd Aug
Due for my weekly checkup as its the last few weeks to my due date... (EDD : 8 Aug 2011)
Sad fact i cant have a National Day baby... according to the gynae i will have to induce my baby on the very day... which means i have to admit into hospital in the afternoon...

This is how my tummy bloats to before i head to the hospital...
Luckily i had my stuff all prepared, went home for a GOOD bath and had a sinful meal before hubby drives me to Mount Alvernia...
'Check-In' with loads of Barangs prepared for my 3 days stay at the 6 star hotel... Weird thg is they immediately put me in the delivery suit... scare me... cos to my understanding they will only bring us to the delivery suit when i am all ready to give birth... but surprising its like if they have available rooms, they will 'upgrade' your stay at no additional cost... lolx...

Good this way too cos hubby gets to have a little place on his own to rest while i'm going through the waiting and contraction...

The nurse inserted the pills for induction at about 5pm in the afternoon and afterwhich to me its purely boredom... i fel no pain, no irritation, literally no signs of delivering at all...
I can even Camwhore, explore the delivery suits and visit the other mummies waiting for delivery...

10pm is the time my nightmare starts... 1st contraction pain felt... and its also the time hubby got me food from J8 cos i hate the junk that they serve... Hubby bought Pizza for me but i cant really enjoy cos of the contraction...

1st tear from contraction hits me at ard 12 midnight... and stubborn me refuse to ask for epidural thinking that it will wear off and wont last till i deliver.... madness... i screamed for help at 1am cos its really unbearable... according to the nurse they can only give me epidural if i dilate till at least 3 cm... lucky bt the time my gynae came, epi can be given...

I can only rem Dr Chan walking in and out and they gave me my dosage of epi which ended my long night... Epidural is heaven at that time... i doze off shortly after that and hubby also manage to catch some sleep...

8am in the morning my gynae came and do a round of check and according to her i will be ready for delivery ard 12noon (4Aug)... the wait starts to drag and since midnight, darling's heartbeat weakens on and off... around 11am the nurse detected tt Precious's heartbeat is slowly down... therefore she called for my gynae... Gynae came back to 12 to deliver precious but my dearest refuse to slide down the path, so no choice, i have to c-sect...

I have fear towards operating theatre, towards knifes and stuff on me... i wasnt sure at that point and i started to panic.. i started shivering... Thank God i have my hubby by me.. before they push me to the operating theatre, hubbe said 'JIA YOU' to me... i cant really hear him cos he is outside the delivery suit waiting.. they dun allow him in as they are preparing me for the operation...

Hubby is a brave man to me... he seek for permission from my gynae to go into the operating theatre with me... it really calms me down seeing him sitting by my side when i'm lying on the operating platform... i can see that he is gan jiong too alothough he claimed that he is not... My gynae gt to remind him to take camera and waited for him to pick up the camera before the start the operation.. lolx

Throughout the process, hubby keeps telling me the progress and what are the docs and nurses doing... to me is like WTF!! lolx...

The whole operation is smooth despite the fact that they have to make 2 attempts to pull precious out... lolx... she refuse to come out even i go through c-sect...

Princess Liz is born!!! Weighing 3.162kg 51cm long... lolx...

My strong little baby girl...

I was confined on bed for 2 days due to the operation... and the best is, NO FOOD & DRINKS!!

on the 3rd day when i first got out of bed... i puked like mad... the puking is madness... initially i tot its the side effect of epi, but according to the doc its because i lied on bed for too long without movement thats y i will puke the moment i got down from bed...

Discharged on the 4th day together with Princess... lucky she has no signs of jaundice... we can go home together!!

It marks the start of Little Lam Family!!!!