I LOVE N.O.S.S!!

Some updates on the activities with N.O.S.S
had been doin all sorts of activities la..
prawning, golfing, bowling...
Its FuLL of FUN!!
Nic edited a new pic.. Done by Nic.. thanks alot
Nice~~~
Golfing had came back into my life again... WOoOooOo
Finally found khakis to play again lor...
The Hungry Men of N.O.S.S
the tim sum supper before Mustafa...
We went bowling... LOL...
i am freaking lousy la.. but its fun playin with them...
cos furnie lor.. but hate the fact that i am lousy...
gonna play more to get better...
was sick for last week and my dearest N.O.S.S brought me out once i recover...
we went east coast to the 'Diao Wa Wa' place again...
felt a little painful when i was there cos it was the place that meant alot to me and leonard..
its a place of 'togetherness'

but now its a place of 'TOGETHERNESS' for me and N.O.S.S too...
the guys got me 6 Stitches.. lolx.. so nice...
gonna upload more pics once i compile them together... lolx

I've Recovered...

Finally i have recovered from my fever and stuff...
now oni left with the irritating cough that refuse to go... haiz...

dunno y had been feeling kinda low for the past few days despite the fact that i had recovered and the upcoming trip...
maeb bcos of my sales ba... cos i am sick so delayed and held back by alot..

went door knocking with Pamela twice this week.... met with some furnie incidents...
it was real tiring but dunno y... quite satiesfying also..
today Pam's hubby came to pick her up aft we are done with the door knocks..
hmmm... was a little jealous or i shld say envy her ba...
leonard used to pick me up from work and it really feels good to see him aft a tiring day...
but now i guess, i have to learn to be alone ba...

had been 5 mths already and i am still not use to it.. lousy ger...
i have to get use to it.. cos i have a life on my own...

heard from him that he found a new 'local' ger who stays near him...
good for him ba.. hope he can settle down....
*deep down still feel bad knowin this fact*

4th Day Being Sick @ Home

Today is already the 4th day i am sick at home...
argh... fever hit me on monday night after dinner with boss and work...

lucky benny is nice enough to come all the way to send me to doc in the middle of the night.
Thanks benny =)

1st night the temperature hit up to 38.2 deg... the nurse was kinda shocked that she immediately put on a mask and handed me a mask... hmmmm....
but to me its kinda common la.. whenever i have serious flu and fever, this temperature is pretty common....

i got better the next day and i went out with my fellow N.O.S.S
this is taken by terence.. he say must take lor...

after tue night i never head out anymore cos my temperature never go down and in fact it keep rising... =(
today is already the 3rd day i am home =( so bored... no one talk to me...

i received a surprise delivery in the morning =)
Thanks Wilx for the porridge and sweet... =)
i feel so loved by N.O.S.S...

so worried about my sales these few days cos i am home not being able to work on it.. =(
haiz... really need alot of luck....

I WANNA GET WELL FAST!! I WANNA GO OUT WITH N.O.S.S... I mISs them so Much!!

i dreamt of him again...
on tuesday night after i ate my medication, i dozed off...
and i dreamt of leonard again...

i my dreams, he came back looking for me, and told me tt he will change as long as i stay by his side... i am really happy in my dreams... happier than i can imagine...
when i wake up, i feel so disappointed... cos its a dream afterall...

last night i have the urge of calling him, i cant control myself...
i called him but he's outside with his friends, so i hang up in less than a min...
=( at least i heard his voice...

dunno why i miss him so much these few days too =(

Finally Told~~

It had been almost 5 mths since i broke up with leonard.
Things are going on fine for him i guess.
and on my side, i am kinda coping well on and off.

for these while, besides the fact that i am not able to completely let go.
the other issue thats running in my mind is how to tell my parents about it.

cant imagine, after 5 mths and i have yet to tell my parents about it.
for the past mths, on and off they will ask me regarding leonard and why he hasnt been coming up to my place.
as i dun have the courage to tell them, i had been coming up with funny funny reasons.
and finally, i no longer have to lie. No more!

My mum came to my room to speak to me few days back.
talking to me about my job and stuff. and i guess as they are not really convinced by my excuses for him not appearing at my place, my mum asked me again regarding him.
She started off by asking me if he will be joining us for their birthday dinner (in aug).

I just felt that this will be a good time to tell them as i wont wanna disappoint them just before their birthdays. So i told her the truth. i simply said "妈，我们分开了!"
There was a moment of slience before she make any comment.
i guess she can sense that i was kinda sad when i told her the truth, so she simply reply "orh, ok lor" and left my room. without askin me about what happened.

until today, she hasnt ask me a single thg about it.
i guess, she wont ask me for the details as she knows that if i wanna share, i will tell her even without her asking.

Really appreciates that she never ask further cos i wont know how to answer and in fact, i feel that i might just come up with another story to cover up the facts.
i dun wanna lie anymore. not anymore towards them.

My parents rarely asked about my relationships and they always respect my decisions.
so far, they are ok with both of my ex bfs and have no objections of me being with them.
the sad fact is, i didnt manage to hold on to them and secure the relationship.

i dunno how long its gonna take me to sort out my mind and feeling.
i also dunno how long will it take for me to find another bf.
all i wanna do now is to show them that i am happy and i can take care of myself.
wont want them to worry for me anymore.

My Lovely N.O.S.S

My Sadden life had been better recently with the help of the N.O.S.S
N.O.S.S represents Nights of Subaru Singles... lol

This name is derived from the fact that the 4 guys in the group drove Subarus (Coincidentally) and we always heads out in the night.
I added the word Singles behind cos 4 out of 5 of us are single and i want somethg to represent me in the name... so i simply added it.. lolx
now we are still in the progress of generating better name.. considering la... lolx...

i was kinda high on one of the night and i started naming every single car...

Wilx's Subaru is named "Hong Hong" (红红): He is the only red plate wor. so best fit name is 红红..
Benny's Subaru is named "Char Bo" = "Jar Bo": His car plate start with SJB.. lol.. i gave him alot of choices ar.. but he dun wan.. so dun care... just accept the fact tt its "char Bo" =p
Nic's Subaru is named "Chou Chou"(丑丑): His was the easiest to name, cos its the uglist version of imprezza.. lolx..
Terence's Subaru is named "Jolin": He had been using this name for some time le.. cos of his car plate numbers.. lolx
to realise, all the names of the cars are ger liked.. keke... match me... cos i am the only ger ma... so it wont be that lonely lor..

Introducing the N.O.S.S:

Wilson, Benny, Terence, Nicholas..
The Angel with her knights... lolx... Thanks guys... Great to have u all around...
More fun coming along!! Looking forward to the trip with u all... Yeah!!!

"Nobody"

Hasnt been feelin wonderful recentli...
dunno y... just dun seem to be able to be as happy as before...

but lucky i have N.O.S.S by my side...
went KTV with the till 4am in the morning...
hanging out with them had been the most enjoyable times i had these 2 mths...
thanks alot guys...

Thanks for the song and "dance", it really brighten my night...

In video: Benny, Nic, Wilx, Terence & Andy...

Thanks guys... muacks