Summary of My 1st Week of Misery

The week seem to past very slowly...
Its only a week yet it felt like thgs happened just yesterday...
maybe this is all because the wound still felt fresh and the pain had never a moment left me...

I had been trying to talk to him almost everyday for the first few days.. but i had kinda gave up the idea.. cos he seem very firm on his decision.. and he seem to be have already decided to shut me off frm his heart and life...
its really painful for me to know this fact and also to admit it...
i had been trying to accept.. but.. not very successful...
i am still trying... still trying...

for the past week i had spoke to countless people..
met wif lots and lots of friends...
then i realise alot of friends really loves me...
thanks so much....

Bestie said that i am a late bloomer... this kind of thgs had already happened to alot of ppl way back and they had already mastered the skill of survival..
and it seem that me the late bloomer is oni a newbie.. lol... silly me..

i just spoke to him hrs ago.. very sad to realise that he is still standing firm on his decision..
and the worse is to realise that he is making use of this opportunity to really enjoy himself...
enjoy his time wif his guys and go to places that i really HATE him to go...
at this stage i have no other choice but to see him go...
argh... if this is a stage of growing up for men..
I really have doubt whether men are really mature creatures.. they dun even know wats moral and wats responsibility towards themselevs and other ppl...

me now sitting in front of my lappy trying to blog tis out..
and in my mind i am thking of him having fun wif his guys and other gers outside...
torturing...
WHY AM I THE ONE SUFFERING!!!

this is how stupid some women can be..
and i have to say.. its how stupid ANgela is!!!
cant imagine that...

recentli felt very related to this song 傻瓜 by 温岚
its telling how i am now.. being silly.. being stupid...

其实他做的坏事我们都懂
没有什么不同
眼光闪烁 暧昧流动
闭上眼当作听说

其实别人的招数我们都懂
没有什么不同
故作软弱 撒娇害羞
只是有一点别扭

傻瓜也许单纯地懂
爱得没那么做作
爱上了我不保留

傻瓜 我们都一样
被爱情伤了又伤
相信这个他不一样
却又再一次受伤

傻瓜 我们都一样
受了伤却不投降
相信付出会有代价
代价只是一句傻瓜

其实别人的招数我们都懂
没有什么不同
故作软弱 撒娇害羞
只是有一点别扭

傻瓜也许单纯地懂
爱得没那么做作
爱上了我不保留

傻瓜 我们都一样
被爱情伤了又伤
相信这个他不一样
却又再一次受伤

傻瓜 我们都一样
受了伤却不投降
相信付出会有代价
代价只是一句傻瓜

傻瓜 我们都一样
被爱情伤了又伤
相信这个他不一样
却又再一次受伤

傻瓜 我们都一样
受了伤却不投降
相信付出会有代价
代价只是一句傻瓜

really need a source of rescue...
can someone help and remove him frm my mind and my heart..
someone please...

Stepping Back into Life as a Single

Well, i guess this entry is rather easy to understand jus from my title..
yes, i have no choice but to say that i am back to single again...
at this moment when i am typing this entry, i have to say that it is a really hard fact for me to accept... and i really dun wish to accept...

but i dun really have a choice...
in order to stay as a couple, 2 persons have to really love each other..
and if this isnt the case, i guess i can no longer force it..
i had tried whatever i can and i had given watever i can...
the only thg i can say is "i have no regrets"
its just a pity that we cant be together longer..

i promised to give him the time and space he wanted to sort out his mind and his stuff..
and he had also promise that during this period, he wont fall for another gal or commit into another relationship...
i have no choice but to believe for the last time..
praying that this will is true and there will still be hope in future...

this is the 2nd time we are together..
the 1st was 8 yrs back when i was 15...
this time it lasted pretty long as compared to the previous...
and i am sure, he will remember me...
Dear,

Thanks for what you had done for me for the past year,
now we have to put this chapter to an end... this is your choice..
and this is what you wanted... i am going as you say...
hope you remembers what u promised...
and also remember that i will be loving you...

Love,
Angie

End of Chinese New Year!!

Yesterday was the 15th of the January in lunar calender which marks the last day for CNY celebrations...
No more Lao Yu Sheng.. No more Ang Bao.. No more Xin Nian Kuai Le... etc etc

This Ox year is kinda different for me.. in the sense of celebration and stuff..
reduced visiting with parents.. increased visitings to friends place..
and INCREASED gambling... lol...
its a good start for me.. as the jobless ger here won a small small sum in '21 points'.. hehe...

the only thg that remains the same ever since i remember is our family's yearly gathering...
the day when me and my sis moves back home to stay for the 2 PH...
actually.. every year i will look forward to movin back.. and i kinda like the feelin stayin with daddy mummy...
i guess the fastest time it will happen again will be in 1 yr's time - the year of Tiger..
Pics we took on the 1st day of CNY.. mummy seems to like taking pics wif us lor.. lol..
Camwhoring is in the blood... jus look at the 3 of us... lol

Pics of me and mummy in cab.. 2nd day of CNY...

Family Pic at my Aunt's place... This is spikey... Amy got her kimono in japan.. $80++ SGD..

ex lor..

this year was kinda relaxing.. hehe...

kinda old le... paiseh to take ang bao also lor... =p

the oni sad thg abt this CNY is that i am not able to give daddy and mummy ang bao like the previous years cos i am not working...

haiz...

nvm... jia you jia you jia you!!!!

21 Points Nights~~

this is the very 1st CNY that i have been playin 21 points nights after nights lor.. lol... new experience new fun with new friends..
thanks to my dear dear who brings me along...

*muacks muacks*

dear dear HUAT AR!!! camwhoring while others are still stressed wif the game...

yst night's session was good..

generous banker.. bought us mac supper.. thanks thanks see.. andy eating still can play a fool.. lol..

he is the 1st few whom i see can play 21 points until so comical de lor.

dear dear i got evidence that u smoke lor...

after CNY must control le har.. no more excuse wor.. lol

i guess there will be a few more nights of games..

jia you jia you.. HUAT AR!! lol

春到河畔 !!

春到河畔 is the yearly event that happens for Chinese New Year..
and for this year of Ox, my dear dear brought me there...

after all the visiting and gatherings...
we finally got some time to be on our own..
the sad fact is that we actually run out of activities to do..
and there is no movie that we wanna watch...

we decided to jus drive to town and have supper...
great that my brains didnt let me down...
春到河畔 just pop into my mind... and since we are already on our way to town..
we decided to just check it out...
only then i realised that my dear dear had never went to春到河畔 before!! lol
i was kinda surprised.. cos this event had been there every Chinese new year since dunno when lor.. and he had never been there before.. =p
nvm nvm... then he gives his 'first' experience to me then...

we went in from the side which started off with the food street..
since we both have yet to have our dinner, we settled our dinner there...
small food stalls wif all sorts of food...
final purchase: Phat Thai Talay, Otah Otah, cheese hotdog, taiwan sausage, tang chong bao bing & grass jelly...
weird combination rite.. lol.. we got our seat at the spectator stand..
windy, nice view... happy~~~

dear best lor.. ate 6 otahs at 1 go.. although share share la.. but he ate most of it.. lol

after we filled our tummy.. we head straight to all the light exhibits to take pics..

lucky i have my cam wif me.. lol.. if not wont be able to take pics le.. =p

The peacock.. dear dear "Its illegal to feed wild animal"

Missy Ox wif her Ox and Mr Raty wif his Rat.. lol

dear dear act cute lor.. copy rat..

the happy missy ox.. she is feeling GREAT!!

thanks dear dear for the fun.. i dunno if u really enjoyed..

but i enjoyed myself ALOT!!looking forward to a great year of Ox wif u..

*muacks*