Im On Maternity Leave

Hello All!!!

im officially on Maternity Leave and this is already the 3rd week.. lolx... Wondering why it took me so long to post an entry when im suppose to be the most 'ENG' person... lolx.. laziness is the thg lor... wat else can it be right...

I am already on my 39 weeks of pregnancy and bb is gonna arrive within these few days...

So Damn excited abt it but at the same time i am kinda worried too cos according to the gynae my little baby is not really that little... lolx...

It simply means that my baby is kinda huge... as per last week her estimated weight is at least 3.5kg... hmmmp..... i just wonder how am i gonna push her out...

Recently whats running through my mind is whether i shld still continue with the plan of natural birth or i shld change to c-sect.. cos i fear that fact that i will have to go through emergency c-sect... the thought of it is enough to kill me...

My tummy now is damn huge and baby's movement is getting more and more, stronger and stronger.. it is literally like an earthquake in ur tummy... u can see the tummy surface moving and shifting... lolx... jus like mother earth shifting the earth plates that cause earthquakes.. lolx...

okie update of my activities for the past few weeks...

1st week of leave is boring... i am stuck at home except friday which i get to go out the whole day with Chelle for shopping... The mummies head out to get baby stuff... lolx... didnt really buy much though cos was really unsure what to get...

2nd week is better... almost whole week occupied... cos i keep running home.. lolx.. went out shopping on wed and friday with 2 mummies seperately.... shopping for baby stuff again...

it seems like i only know and only wants to buy baby stuff recently... hmmm... mother nature acting on me again??? lolx

This week is okie so far... had a great day out with Alodie although i spent quite abit... Time out with family and own sibling is still the best la... nuttin beats it...

Oh ya oh ya... Mummy Angela needs a new wallet... yet to source for a nice one.... hmmm... gonna make Daddy Lam buy as a 'Push' Present... lolx...

Now thgs for baby are all prepared, jus waiting for the arrival of the little one...

when will that day be???

*Sneak Preview to her decorated cot... lolx*

Updates!!

Had been so long since i last blogged... lolx...

cos my work is no long as free as before.. but soon i will be back to my eng eng lifestyle as im starting my maternity leave in mid july....

Completed 1 event with TEC for the past 2 weeks and next week is my 2nd event... after that will be closing report n stuff and i am done...

Appraisal scheduled on the 29th June, Good Luck Angela, hopefully i can secure the job and my paid leave to accompany my dearest princess at home..

Liz is already at her 32 weeks le... tt means 8 mths... very soon she will be out saying 'HI' to all... haha... cant wait for that day...

I had moved back to chai chee for the pass 2 weeks!! WeEeEeeEeeE!!!

Honestly i dunno how to describe that feeling, i can only say... I FEEL WONDERFUL!!

and honestly i thk i shld frequest back home... haha... will blog abt this one day...

Hmm... good thgs dun last, im will be shifting home next weekend or so... haiz...

im so gonna miss home once again... how i wish i dun have to go back to hougang...

i miss everyone here everything here...

Misery of a a married women...

My Tummy at 29th Week... so can you imagine how it looks like now?? LOLx

26 Weeks Pregnant

Jus a entry to scare myself.. lolx...
took pics of my tummy at 26 weeks....







XOXOXOXOXO

Im Not Really Happy

Ok i did what i wanted to do recently...
That is to walk out of the house in the middle of the night to get some time alone and some air to breathe...

some things are there yet we have to act as though its invisible...
im not the kind of person tt can try to slowly forget, ill rather tackle it and solve it, talk about it..
i like dealing with things the hard way...

i left home without him realising.. tts how deep he fell into his sleep...
Reached home abt an hr later... lousy shit... wanted to go for a longer time... but my FIL in awake... dun wan him to be worried... the time alone is not enough.. but at least better than none...

i feel like moving home for a short period of time.. i kinda missing home... dunno y.. at times i jus feel tt at my current place, no one is on my side... worse is my hubbee dun even understand me... T_T to my hubbee everything is jus small issue, if i have any request he will try to give in to me as much as possible, if there is any problem between us he will try to avoid or to give in to me as much as he can... but still... to me... problem is still there... not solved... i know he is trying very hard... i'm sorry to be the cause of ur pain.. but im jus not happy...

Wish i can learn to act blind to alot of issues.. hmmm... is this life?? or shld i ask is this married life???

Long Weekend Update!!!

This long weekend of Labour Day is relatively good... almost everyday is fully made use of...
Precious time spent with Hubbee, walking ard, shopping, plan for our home renovation etc...
hmmm... quite proud of ourselve...

Spent a little over the weekend...
Hubbee finally got me my LONG BELATED Birthday Present... lolx..
but in return i got him something also... cos i remember owing him a present for last yr christmas... lolx... SUPER LONG OVERDUE!! lolx..

haha... his carrier is soOOo small compared to mine... =p size doesnt matter... its the item inside that matters...

Welcome my New Love home!!! my Speedy.... and hubbee's card holder... hee...

Unstable Mind & Emotions

I dunno if all or even most of the pregnant women feels it but i feel rather unstable mentally...
not bcos of the baby or anythg thats related but more of personal kind of feeling..

i am getting a little more sensitive that usual,
a little more emotional than usual,
a little more petty than usual,
a little more particular than usual...

hmmmm... i know this isnt good but for some reasons it jus became part of me and its something that i cant control.

Very often i feel like tearing and i feel like just being alone...

recently im starting to feel the strain between my relationship with Wilx...
i dunno what is the main cause of it.. but alot of times we dun see eye to eye to issues and we will start our arguement and eventually leads to him being mad and me crying...
it had been kinda hurtful and to a certain extend tt i even though of running away..

one of the night last week, i even thought of running away frm home... cos i wanna be alone and i dun wanna see him or hear him... i dunno y... the arguement is not a very big issue but i just feel hurt...

It seems like its harder to understand him.. i dunno what he wants and wat is he thking abt...
alot of thgs tt need his attention he simply ignores... and for thgs tt is not the main concern, he is so into it.. just like how i always complain, he cares for his liverpool and the matches more than me lor... haiz...

its less than 3 mths away frm the arrival of Liz and there are still tonnes of thgs not done... Oh My!! how i wish i can do it on his behalf... than thgs might expedite a little...

his asthma is getting frm bad to worse... jus hope that he recover faster and all these nonsense will stop ba...

Update on Princess Liz

Liz's Mummy is now officially 25 weeks 1 Day Pregnant..
Liz is more n more active and gettin more and more obvious...
kinda like obstructing and restricting what her mummy wears...

Watched a documentary on Baby in womb that explains the different stages of growth and changes that occur in the womb...
By now Liz shld b able to hear me clearly as she is in my tummy ar and she will also hear male voices better as compared to female...
this is due to the frequency of male's voice.. i thk bcos their tone is much lower than female...
Nvm as long as she can hear me im more than happy...

Her senses are building up.. by now she can already feel out touches, hear us, and even taste what im eating... how amazing right... hmmm... gonna go back and finish the show by tonight...

Preview of my growing tummy... my tummy is still relatively small compared to others at the same stage... i guess its bcos my baby is a princess ba... at this stage i can already feel her weight, as in the weight of my tummy and my legs (esp knee) back is alr aching and givin me prob sleepin in the night...
Went to the baby fair last sunday... haha... greedy mummy got some freebies from the fair.. These arent jus free gifts okie.. we paid more than 2k before we get these stuff... lolx
We signed up for the StemCord for Liz... that means they will be collecting her cord blood the moment she is born... hmmm... this cost us a bomb... but both me n wilx feel tt we shld do this for her at least it acts as a backup plan when help is needed..

The thg that touches me the most is, regardless how tight our financial situation is, Wilx is always very supportive when providing for Liz. Initially i only want to sign up for the 1 yr plan jus in case at birth there might b emergency need and we might not be able to afford to continue supporting the Cord blood to be kept longer.. then once Liz stablize after 1 or 2 yrs we can stop the plan. But Wilx signed up for the 5 yrs plan straight without second thought and on the way home he even told me that he intend to keep it as long as he could. Until the day when we transfer the ownership back to Liz when she turns 21. It can be a gift for her future and who knows this gift might safe Liz, Me, Wilx or even our next kid in future... Awwww~~~

We got some Blankets, Sweddle, rompers and socks for Liz at the fair too... and guess what, we bought the size for 3-6mths instead of 0 - 3mths cos Wilx said that "What makes you think our baby will be that small to fit into 0-3mths clothings" lolx... honestly true la... those 0-3 mths clothes are so small tt i thk any baby wearing will make it look very tight fitting.. lolx



Gonna buy more stuff... looking at the shopping list im so gonna faint...
Gonna be broke real soon buying all these stuff...