海鸣威 - 你的承诺

乌云遮蔽了天空
窗外又是阴雨时候
伞下的恋人中
不再有你我手牵手
一切过了太久

我们的十字路口
下一站是谁在等候
你我的方向盘却向着
相反的彼岸
终点还是分开

告别你我离开之后
这回忆可以保留
当初那美好的感动
你说你记住了
不为彼此难过
过各自的生活

oh baby~
你答应我的我都记得
但是你却忘了你的承诺
不是说好彼此都不再联络
谁都别再犯错

是我的固执让你难过
但是分手却也无法选择
我走了以后
你要好好生活
不要想我 也别再哭了
不要想我 也别再~

Thanks

Received a long and nice declaration sms from a close friend of mine early in the morning...
am really touched to see such a msg but i really have to apologise to you....

in my heart i really wanna maintain the relationship between us as how it is now...
i dun wan to ruin anything between all of us...

sincerely i wish you all the best in your future..
and hope that you can find your angel very soon...
all the best in your career and in your life...

Friends forever =)

Maze

not sure if i set the title correctly...
what i really wanna say is life is like a maze...
at times when u feel that the path is right and u are sure of ur route,
the next moment u might start havin doubts and eventually lost without knowing what is the right step...

especially when there are choices and mystery boxes in place along the way...
u will tend to hestitae if u should follow ir heart or ur mind...

i have a few choices now... yet i refuse to take any....
i chose the toughest route once again... that is to find someone who is way out of the picture...
cos my mind tells me that i shouldnt... i cant afford to ruin the friendship..
so the best way out is to choose another person who is not in the picture at all at the moment...

i set my mind and heart on a few randoms...
but so far not much positive situations..
am i really that bad??

i am getting tired...
really need someone whom i can depend on...

My Love is HOME!!

Wanna say big Thank You to Benny & Wilson for getting my Boyfriend for me...
Stitch is my love and thank you guys for getting the toy for me.. Thanks so much...
Its like my Dream come through...
SOOoOoOOoOoo In Love with Mr Stitch!! WoOOoOHOOOoo

Human emotions

The power of human emotions can be real amazing...
it has the ability to create significant changes in ones' life....
its only if one have the ability to overcome and take control of it else might cause situations which u will never expect...

after these while going through the breakup and picking myself up,
i sensed the changed in me myself and i had also seen changes in people around me who had gone through different situations...
some manage to conqure the emotions and live their life as per normal without significant changes but some had got themselves into trouble or obstacles in life that might lead them to a different path in future...

emotions i refer to indicates feelings like depressed, jealousy, happiness etc..
i believe all these emotions and feelings affect individual in a way or another...
no one can be spared from it completely... its just the matter of time and situation for you to take notice of the change...

hmmm.. the power of emotions should never be underestimated...
cos once the effect takes place, the route to salvage it is never easy...

Wanna Be In Love Again

have this stupid feeling since 090909 bcos of Pris's wedding...
silly right... but had been fluctuating between wanting to and not wanting to...
regardless of what i still feel that i prefer to be attached than to be single...
silly mindset...

did a quiz of facebook你在異性眼中的魅力有多少？
and my result is a amazing 95%... haha
魅力指數95%。自信是你的最大魅力，非常有風度，從不斤斤計較。你的魅力自然散發，沒有任何的虛偽與做作，讓異性不自覺地想要接近你，但又害怕遭到你的拒絕。你外在的氣質、裝束永遠像一束明亮的光，吸引著異性的視線。

dunno y i had never realise the presence of the 95%... hmmm
but in fact i do not need the 95%...
all i want is the one and only guy i like to be attracted to me and love me...
that matters the most and its the most important thg right??

the route to true love seem so tough compared to before...
getting harder and harder...
is this due to my expectations in life??

Priscilla & Eric's Big Day!!

Its a very meaningful day for both eric and priscilla.. and also the lot of us...
once again i felt "LOVE IS IN THE AIR"
after so long....

090909 - 09 sep 09
such a meaningful date... once in the lifetime...
specially dedicated to this couple... my gf and her husband...
congrates to u babe...

its a long day for all of us.. was so excited the night before and as busy preparing the stuff to sabotage eric during the gate crash, didnt slp until abt 3am and i woke up at 5am the next morning...

the sisters arrived at the bride's place at 7.30am in the morning...
preparing for the gate crash and also helpin the bride wif her packing and stuff...
its the togetherness feeling... haha...
we werent really mean to the brothers... only some small games and the usual 酸甜苦辣...
酸甜苦辣 was prepared by Junna and Rina... super well done... =p
but sad fact we met wif lousy brothers... they bullied us all the way and play cheat... didnt really finish everything.. but its ok cos its jus a form of formalities... so we didnt really force them to...

i made eric and his brothers do a dance at the grass field downstairs the block... he is cool man... really fulfilled it...

wedding is really a major headache... alot of formalities and customs to follow... tedious...
the whole morning ended at abt 11am at the bride's place again..

all of us head back for a short rest before goin back to the hotel to prepare for the night...

Solemnization started at 6pm in the evening, we were there at 430pm preparing...
busy setting my hair --> stylist ms Junna Seah
*Finally i saw my curls again... i'm loving it*

every time when i attend a ROM or wedding, i will feel very touched and want to cry..
esp when i know the bride or groom for a long time...
really felt happy for them cos having the courage to step into a relationship, finding the right one and goin towards the other stage in life is never easy... and not everyone is so lucky...

Solemnization ended at about 630pm, afterwhich me and Kyle rushed over to the ballroom for our rehearsal... surprise surprise, i am the emcee for the night... chinese wor... hahaa...
it isnt that tough afterall as the script is already prepared for us, jus that have to get use to the few irritating words that had been put together as a sentence...
during the dinner, the played a video of the process from the met till their marriage...
its cartoon... real interesting... i am sure gonna do it if i am to get married one day... =p
the night was busy for me but fun and


this couple made me feel the love again...
really wish u 2 all 白头谐老， 永结同心，早生贵子
baby

feel like being in love once again... but i know this isnt easy... especially for me...
hmmm i guess can only sit back and watch how happy other couples can be... =)
demoralizing wor... =( envy envy

Destroyed Hearts

Suppose to be updating on Priscilla's wedding but i decided to put it on hold as i am feeling extremely strong for this entry...
this entry is mainly for myself and also my buddies who are suffering from the same situations as i do...

my girly gang which has been wif me for the longest period of time consist of 4 of us (min, joan, mich and me) out of the 4 of us, 3 met wif the fate of being betrayed by the guy that we trusted and love the most...

one by one we are facing with situations like that... so please spare the last ger from this.. we really wan her to be the most fortunate ger out of the 4....
3 of us handled the situation differently due to our individual character...
initially i didnt really feel so much about it... i only feel the anger part, but ever since leonard left me, my thoughts and feeling changed... its more to disappointment and pain...
Is it really that hard to find a guy that is true and sincere??

its really painful to be betrayed by the one that u love the most...
esp when u know that he is enjoying the 'love' while u are suffering alone... sad fact...

honestly after all these experiences from myself and frm friends ard... i fear relationship...
after attending pris's wedding yst, i started to miss the feeling of being in love, or in fact all of a sudden i no longer fear relationship and in fact want to love and be in love...
yet in less than 24 hrs i heard of another close friend of mine being betrayed... it pushed me back into my shell once again.... fearing love and relationship...

had been meeting with some new friends, 1 or 2 really caught my mind...
and i highly doubt there will be anything out of it because of the fear i have towards relationships...
i know this shouldnt be the way but thgs are jus not positive....
contradicting life... want to love yet fear to love...
true love do exist i believe, but not all gers are lucky... i know i am not the lucky one....
the path to love is so dark that i am loosing my way...

Priscilla's Stag Night~~

Finally we are counting down to our dearest babe's wedding...
celebrated her Stag night on saturday at Boiler after our beloved steamboat session...
very last min we do up a veil for her as we missed the tiara out.. =p
but it was a nicely done one.. our 1st weddin pressie for her...
we arent mean ppl... we oni made her wear it aft steamboat at bugis all the way to st james throughout the night at Boiler...
the oni prob she has is while she is drivin.. the veils give her difficulty in turnin her head... =p

it wasnt a huge grp of us last night... present was me, junna charlene, teresa and kim...
and amazingly we had loads of fun and laughter...
thanks to the help of william who managed to get us a table and guestlist...
not forgetting the special arrangement of getting her up on stage for her Stag night game...
it wasnt really tough for our babe cos naturally she is HOT!! even the emcee and singers salutes to her courage and how supporting she is...
the dancer gave her a lap dance and in return she did the same...
and she is soooOOOOOO good that made all of us go crazy... even the singers were amazed...
i heard alot of compliments that she is HOT, SEXY and COOL... well done babe... u r perfect...
it was again another night of kisses... but this time round no more gays..
its us gers... ITS A GERS NIGHT!! all of us literally kiss and kiss...
miss those times when we hang out over the weekends partying and have fun...

kim is super wonderful... always great to have her ard...
auto on high mode even w/o alcohol.. yeah...
thats how we gers do it... its not the drinks that make it fun, its the companion....

we are all counting down to the big day on wed.. really looking forward to it...
its gonna be another series of fun and laughter...

once again thanks to william and his friends for being there sharing the fun...
great ppl and fun bunch of party ppl...

also congrates to the new couple... William and Patrick...
seems that their big day is drawin near too.. haha

~孤单的人总说无所谓~

~孤单的人总说无所谓~
蔡依林

我的心真得累了
难道你一点也看不见
解释再多也不能改变
感情不能靠我一个人挽回

开始学着不要人陪
假装孤单也是一种美
大街上的情人双双对对
让我看得心越来越碎

孤单的人总说无所谓
其实心里一直在下雪
总是希望有个人
能够敞开我心扉
让我在他怀里找到安慰
孤单的人总说无所谓
一直独自整理所有伤悲
掩饰心中的感觉
强忍眼角的泪水
聚聚散散不愿说后悔

孤单的人总说无所谓
其实心里不停在下雪
只能希望有个人
试著敞开我心扉
让我在他怀里找到安慰

孤单的人总说无所谓
还是独自整理所有伤悲
掩饰心中的感觉
强忍眼角的泪水
聚聚散散不愿说后悔

埋藏心中的感觉
擦干眼角的泪水
聚聚散散
不愿说后悔

Smashed Again~~

its the smashed feeling once again...
collected my results today... finally after so long....
the results are kinda expected... i didnt make it...

i guess i shldnt blame anyone but myself...
for loosing concentration for a man that at the moment worth nothing to me...
and for loosing myself and forgetting all my goals, dreams and aims in life...

had been freaking disappointed with myself for what i had been doin and wat i done...
really need to shift my self back to who i use to be and who i am actually...
i needa find myself...

hasnt been at the best of my luck and best on my personal form...
i wanna kill the angie in me now... i wan back the old angela...

kinda miss eric today...
dunno y... maeb bcos i spoke to alvin yesterday ba...
~emoing~