at moments thgs seem real fine and the other in went the opposite...
it makes me start to doubt if i am asking too much or i am too naive...
i believes in people and thgs easily.. thats y i fall in love and in situations easily...
but i have an issue trusting someone... esp when it comes to relationship... i guess this had been planted in me by leo who misused my trust...
i understand that people varies, but y am i not able to find the right one whom i can really trust, whom i can give all the freedom he wants jus like how i had been doing before...
recently realised that i still have the ability to fall in love and to like someone...
but jus 1 week, thgs changed... completely...
i begin to doubt whether guys like me for who i am or for how i look only??
shallow world...
cant imagine what would i be if i am still the angela few yrs back...
will i be outcasted by everyone?? will i still get all the attention and care??
i dun really ask much from a guy... i dun need his money, i dun need pratical stuff...
wat i need is jus love, care, trust...
why is it so tough?? or is it because people dun even trust themselves how they expect me to trust them?? hmmmm....
or is it because they dun even know what they wan, wat they thk and how they feel? they dun even know themselves?? weird...
the searchin game is becomin more and more hurtful...
i begin to fear to commit yet i am willing to commit...
i wan to love yet i fear falling in love...
the price of love and relationship is too much for me to bear...
what should i do now??
shut my doors and reject entry of love?? of shld i keep trying??
i guess i would op for the first...
crawl back and love the world being alone....
with no one but myself....
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