Mix Feelings

Wedding Updates...

Date: 27 Feb 2011 (Confirmed)

Venue: Swissotel Merchant Court (Confirmed)

Bridal Shop & Shoot (Confirmed)

Wedding Band (Purchased)

Seems that the big items for the wedding had already been confirmed now left with the misc items to follow up with... haiz... seems easy ar..

haha... not at all...

i'm having alot of headaches making arrangements with my parents and also hearing alot of funny stuff from wilx parents... haiz

i guess this is part and parcel of wedding planning, part and parcel of life...

why i put the title as mixed feeling?

i thought all brides should be excited about the big day about all the upcoming customaries to be completed and follow up??

No im not at all.. i dun feel excited, in fact im getting worried as the day draws nearer...

i was sitting on my way trying to slp 1/2 hr ago and alot of memories start flowing through my mind... the memories i had with this family of mine, all my family members, my dog and every part of the hse of my room... all sorts of memories starts flooding my mind...

suddenly i have the urge to cry... cant imagine i'm gonna move out from this family into another family and create a new family of my own... its exciting but i'm so gonna miss my current family who had showered me with love and care for the last 25yrs... the thought of leaving them is really hurtful... i'm so gonna miss them, miss my home, miss everyone everything in this current home of mine...

i know this is a part that everyone have to go through and will go through as they grow up and move to another stage in life.... but i jus cant bear to leave them...

Hope that after marriage, after i have my own kid, wilson will allow me to come back often and at times have a short stay here... Hope he can understand that this is the place i love the most and supports me the most....

I Sincerely hope so....

New Stage in Life

Had been a long long time since i last blogged...
what had i been busy with? lolx
dating with my bf cum husband...

alot of things had changed during this period of time...

i got myself a new job and i am out of job again,
then i got myself another job and now i'm jobless again,
my bf proposed and planned to get married in 2-3yrs time,
almost 2 mths later we have to push forward everything....

the latest date for the wedding will have to be in march and hopefully can do it by end feb...
alot of things ahead for me and alot of things for me to work on...

once again i'm at the stage of dunno whats next

*Confused*

My heart is getting weaker...

Oh my oh my...
getting breathless...

it seems that i am stuck once again...
life is too complicating... too many paths, too many options...
too much wants, too much needs...

i always thought that i know what i wanted and what i need...
i always feel that i am in control and i know the path...
but guess what... i am starting to have doubts already...

Doubts in my thinking, my path, my goals and even my needs...

shitty feeling... i am lost once again...
seems that life and god had forgotten about me...
they leave me roaming ard for the last 2 yrs...

i need to find a way quick to get my life and momentemn back...
I need to find ANGELA TAN JIA HUI!!!

Too Much Stuff, Too Little Time

Recently i keep feeling OLD~
The Quarter Centry Crisis...

I had been asking myself y i have so much to do yet i do not have the time??
Am i getting slow??
Am i getting LAzy??
Or what??

I dun seem to be able to get to the core of the issue...

I guess my current jobs are not giving me the drive and motivations ba...
is it bcos of the job scope??
or simply smthg is missing somehow??

Day by Day pass by filled with nothing very special except work, canversing, work, appointments...
Is this a normal Life for a woman at 25??

OMG!! Starting to feel so old now... no longer have the energy like before and the drive and motivation is missing...

I use to have the ability to slp for less than 4 hrs daily and can still work like a bull the next day.. NOW i need at least 7 hrs of slp a day... and i might still be feeling tired...

ITs the mentality i guess... i have to slowly overcome this irritating situation and get my ass out to really fight for the money that i wan, the future that i wan, the life that i wan...

Must Constantly remind myself that nothing can stop me and i am the main focus and i am also the biggest problem... once i slove the biggest problem, nuttin can be too tough for me to handle, no problem cant be solved...

Yes Angela, keep that in mind... Always move and Dont stop...
Jia You!!!

Fatness in ME!!!

If my gers didnt remind me that i have a blog, i guess i would have totally forgotten about it... So Sorry Bloggy...

hasnt been uploading a single thg for quite a few mths and i guess my own laziness is the thg that cause it.. OMG!! guess i have to be more hardworking and blog as often as i can...

Had been puttin on weight kg after kg non stop..
i need a remedy on this...
if any of u have any way to solve this prob do let me know ya...

Love ya bloggy

KL KL KL!!

Jus came back from KL early this month...
went to attend some seminar with Wilx...
It is suppose to be some form of enriching seminar but honestly ITS BORING and NOT ENRICHING at ALL!! lolx...
2 days seminar and we only attended 1... or shld i say 3/4.. haha...
cos the last 1/4 we were at the pub drinking and listening to songs...

I can say its a blessing in disguise, cos if there isnt this seminar going on, we wouldnt have headed down to KL and i wont have such an enjoyable trip...
Thanks Bee....
I am Missing the Canto Live Band, The Food, The Shopping!!
OMG!!!
i am now thking of heading there again...
Gonna be a jiu hu kia alr... lol... no good...

Its fun to be exploring places without planning... but main thing is i feel safe with him around..
without him i guess i wont be enjoying as much...

we went to places we been before we were together... alot of memories...

Thanks Bee for the trip... Huggies

Tiger Year!!

Had been a long long time since i last updated my blog...
OMG feel so guilty..
and now i am stuck in the situation when i have too much to blog and dunno where to start from...

I guess shall start with the more recent activities...
CNY!! the year of Tiger!!

This year more visitings and lesser gambling compared to last...
More as in besides my own relatives, went to my boss's place and also wilx's relatives place..
New experience and Nice experience...
Today is only the 4th day of CNY... guess more gatherings, dinners and gamblings coming the way...

Wishing everyone Good Health and Best of Luck in the year of TIGER!!
HUAT AR!!!