Starting the March

February 2011 ending in a sweet & joyous moment for me..
But my March started of with a pain in our hearts..

March 08 2011, Popo Left the world early in the morning at 0822hrs...
received the news via phone call frm my dad..
Am shocked and stunned by the news.. dad gave alot of instructions and through the phone i can feel that he is unsure of what to do and he is on the verge of breaking down.. but lucky daddy is strong.. he can still thk and make arrangements systematically..

went to NYP to locate my sis as she is uncontactable... it took us 3 hrs to find her and get her out of sch...

we didnt go to the wake straight as im instructed to head home straight to do some preparation... have to tie a red cloth ard my tummy with an ang bao and some "shi Liu'' leaf
this is to protect my bb...

went there only in the late afternoon when most of the thgs are settled..
i was shocked when dad informed me tat he will be the one paying for the funeral...
its like "arent they contributing?? what happened to the other two???"
i came to know that the other 2 went to Popo's home empty handed and empty pocket.. When mummy approached them, they simply say "i got no $$".. OMG!! WTH!!!
its not like my daddy is rich and owns gold mines lor... my grandfather's wake yrs back the same thgs happened and now still the same shit... they are taking my dad for granted...

nvm... pay shall be it... throughout the wedding comments fly ard non stop.. asking my dad to give tips to workers, to ppl, pay money.. even a $2 pack of rice they will claim from dad.. and guess what, they claim their meals too... they tot my dad is some kinda welfare organization lor..
OMG... i dun understand how can they claim themselves to be popo's kids... the only thg the can afford to pay is ciggerattes and alcohol... WTF!!!

so insensible old ppl.. even we kids know what is right and what's wrong lor..
the most stunning act is that they can ask my dad regardin splitting of assets at the end of the funeral.. WTH WTF!!! Popo had been in the home for almost 10yrs with no savings and all funeral expenses is frm dad, now they asking abt assets...

I dun understand what are they thking at that point, arent they ashame of their own behaviour..
sickening human beings.. ugly human beings...

now everythg is over, just hope that popo will R.I.P and bring better luck & Health to daddy and mummy...

Wedding Pics...

Finally Done with editing of my wedding Pics.. haha...
Simply hate those done by the Bridal Shop. So i decide to do it on my own.. lol..

After seein what i had done for myself.. i feel so much better..

Loves~~~

Amazing Relationship Betweeen Sisters

Im just so proud of the good relationship between me and my dearest sister Alodie today...She is the ger that made me feel so wonderful about family kinship suddenly.She grow up and she learnt how to express herself..

We went shopping yesterday with wilx and we had a great time being together..and guess what, when she's home she posted this entry on her facebook

Suddenly i missed her so much... the images of the time we spent together since young keep flashing in my mind.. i cant bear to leave her alone... how i wish i can bring her along with me..

Since young we shared this amazing relationship.. we have no one by our side at times, just me and her... she is the closest to me and im the closest to her...

We didnt stay with our parents since young, so back at ah ma's place, im her only direct family member, in all situation, we will support each other and talk to each other... and if there is a need, we fight as 1 too.. all siblings are close to one another no doubt, but the relationship that me and alodie shared is a little different, our childhood days are kinda tough, that is why we are so closely bonded together.

I can fully understand how she feel now, cos at a certain point i have the same worry too.. if i have something that i need to talk to someone, i dun have anyone by my side anymore... its harder to find time to spend with my sister alone.. as i was thinking about these tears keep rolling down my cheeks.. and guess what someone is laughing at me.. its no one other than my hubby...

he promised that if ever possible he will make room for my sister to come and stay with us and whenever possible, he will let me stay at yi ma place so that i can spend time with my own family and i can talk to my sis like how we use to... ill make full use of it...

Suddenly i miss those days sharing the same room with my sis and chatting through the night...
I wrote an entry in my fb as a promise to my little sister, Alodie...

Dear Alodie,
Nothing will change even if i am married with kids and have my own family...
You are always my family, my sister, my love one...

Working Woman

Oh My Oh My...
Just started my new job on monday 10 Jan 2011...
New place, near to Wilx place and also to CC.. its a in between...

Previous jobscope, back to doing what i had been doing in AP Comm..
Registration & Database...
hmmm... So far So good.. not much work, in fact, not doing anything at all..
lolx

No proj, no event = no work
whole day 9am - 6pm sitting in front of my lappie on fb, msn, browsing through my hd... how interesting..

Good and bad i guess at this point, i can rest by sitting down not moving and get paid...
the only bad thg is that it can get real boring and cant slp and take nap like what i use to do...
argh... what to do...

for the income, for the family... this is what i have to do and what i should do...
next week goin BKK... Weee~~~~
So looking forward... jus hope that it will be a safe and nice trip...

hmm.... ok last thg on my mind.. im feeling guilty...
for.....
Throwing my temper at Mr Lam...
Just cant help, at times just cant control but to throw my temper at him..
i also dunno y but i have the tendency to do that to him...
so far he had been bearing with it which made me feel guilty...
haiz... i must learn to control...

Wedding Updates!!!

Finally wedding preparations firming up...

Wedding bands altered and collected, now safely kept at home..

wedding photos taken and now pending for photo selection...

Sneak Preview below:

5 Suits in all for photo taking, 3 for indoor and 2 for outdoor..

both of us are so lazy when coming to pick a venue for photo taking so we leave the venue to the photographer to choose.

So we went to Hort Park & MBS Bridge...

Now excitedly waiting for the pics to be out!!!

Mix Feelings

Wedding Updates...

Date: 27 Feb 2011 (Confirmed)

Venue: Swissotel Merchant Court (Confirmed)

Bridal Shop & Shoot (Confirmed)

Wedding Band (Purchased)

Seems that the big items for the wedding had already been confirmed now left with the misc items to follow up with... haiz... seems easy ar..

haha... not at all...

i'm having alot of headaches making arrangements with my parents and also hearing alot of funny stuff from wilx parents... haiz

i guess this is part and parcel of wedding planning, part and parcel of life...

why i put the title as mixed feeling?

i thought all brides should be excited about the big day about all the upcoming customaries to be completed and follow up??

No im not at all.. i dun feel excited, in fact im getting worried as the day draws nearer...

i was sitting on my way trying to slp 1/2 hr ago and alot of memories start flowing through my mind... the memories i had with this family of mine, all my family members, my dog and every part of the hse of my room... all sorts of memories starts flooding my mind...

suddenly i have the urge to cry... cant imagine i'm gonna move out from this family into another family and create a new family of my own... its exciting but i'm so gonna miss my current family who had showered me with love and care for the last 25yrs... the thought of leaving them is really hurtful... i'm so gonna miss them, miss my home, miss everyone everything in this current home of mine...

i know this is a part that everyone have to go through and will go through as they grow up and move to another stage in life.... but i jus cant bear to leave them...

Hope that after marriage, after i have my own kid, wilson will allow me to come back often and at times have a short stay here... Hope he can understand that this is the place i love the most and supports me the most....

I Sincerely hope so....

New Stage in Life

Had been a long long time since i last blogged...
what had i been busy with? lolx
dating with my bf cum husband...

alot of things had changed during this period of time...

i got myself a new job and i am out of job again,
then i got myself another job and now i'm jobless again,
my bf proposed and planned to get married in 2-3yrs time,
almost 2 mths later we have to push forward everything....

the latest date for the wedding will have to be in march and hopefully can do it by end feb...
alot of things ahead for me and alot of things for me to work on...

once again i'm at the stage of dunno whats next

*Confused*