Friday, June 29, 2007

I Am MiSs ANgela

i am kinda cranky today.. dunno y.. maeb due to lack of sleep..
too much dancin le la..
but....
" I FEEL GOOD"

Angela is alwaes the Angela that u all knew..
fr, the beginning till now..

Angela is a bummpy ger..
Cranky.. Weird.. unpredictable and like wat dajie says..
"angela is cai cai"

dunno y... i am feelin SUPER DUPER ULTRA HAPPY..
Super Good Mood..
So pls.. keep it this way.. Thanks

Had been bloggin the whole day and seems that there are endless stuff that angela wanna talk abt.. yeah...

UpdateS:
1. Coming 2 mths will be exciting.. INteresting.. FULL oF Fun
- Angela Lookin forward For Shanghai Again (Most prob cfm le)
- BKK after Shaghai.. Weee weee (lol.. if cfm le.. mus get kaki to extend stay)
- My personal Trip.. Whhooooo oooooo ( will be energectic aft the trip; pls cfm la)
- MNL BBQ (for my beloved july babies
- WG BBQ (planning in progress wor)

2. Waiting for new chances le...
- I AM VERY SURE OF WAT I WANT... cos.. I AM ANGELA !!

3. Sistaz Tree
- WE sistaz as gd as b4.. n gettin BETTER n BETTER
- Kor gettin on GREAT also.. *hugz*
- My Min finally better le... haiz.. dun make me worry ok..
- Jin - Haiyo.. mus wait till ur result comes out la.. *prays*
- Juzjie - i dunno situation.. i am waitin for updates k

4. Relationship..
- Since i am Angela.. it will still be under KIV... =p

HAPPy Angela

MOS Last NiTE !! TF7..

Tertiary Fling Event never ends..
This is alredy the 7th...
hmmmm... when will TF 10 be??

Adrian came to fetch me up at 9+++pm and then we went to fetch sueann..
played a prank on that xiao gua..
i called her on ad's car and i said "uncle, Siglap"
so she immediately get out of hse to wait..

But.. no cab.. she only sees ad's car..
silly ger shld have called ad.. but she didnt..
haiyo.. ben ben..

Ok la.. as usual.. she scream at me for lyin la...
but nuttin serious ma.. jus for laugh =P

My dearest MNL theme for the nite is white top n Jeans bottom..
as i seldom wear white..
the day b4 i went shoppin wif sueann.. and i managed to grab a white t-shirt and a white cap..
nice nice...
they match perfectly.. *muacks*

kinda hip dressin for angela..
unlike the usual black lady angela..
this time its white casual angela...
=P but i like.. comfortable attire...

Most of us were properly attired.. Great effort guys...
i simply loves the unity and appreciates the effort everyone puts in event after event..
=)

MNL Rox !!

My dajie is the cool one lor..
ask alvin take pics for her..

of cos i grab the chance too.. since we have a gd photographer... why nt...
=P

Theres a couple that caught my eye and make me wanna sing out

" Lonely.. i am so lonely... there is nobody .. for my own... "*ikokokoko and Jeremy- Sweetz*MY Babes... *muacks* we gers look pretty in white too... =)Me n Nicky... wah... finally take a pic wif u..

He is MR MIA.. lai ru feng.. qu ru feng...Mr Joel... Hope he is not drunk last nite... =PSueann n Joel... OMG this guy looks so sluty lor..The BC ppl... Me.. Happy and Ash aka 'ah neh'

OOpsOnly until last nite then i realise Uncle Ju has the habit of camwhoring..

Nice nice

Guo Hao n me... Okok.. i will remember to compile ALL the pics n send to u ok..

*Promise*

Wednesday, June 27, 2007

TrUst or NoT TRuSt ?

Heard some stuff last night..
and had a so-call mini discussion...
i still dunno wat i shld do or wat i shld not..

1st time i am caught in a situation like that..
haiyo...

dajie say "let thgs go natually"

i know this.. and of cos i can.. jus be normal..
but.. how much can i still trust into the situation..
and how much can i still believe my eyes??

i dunno when will more thgs start to happen again..
i dunno when will more worries and problems fall on me..
i dun like this kind of feeling...

i already had that fear...
its already a phobia..
theres nuttin much i can do.. realli...

i can only stay calm n try to forgt..
of cos i can try to forgt.. but..
even my brain allows.. my heart dun..
MY HEART WILL NEVER..
cos ANGELA IS HURT !

Never a friend treats me this way...
Never a friend did stuff like that to me..
I can forgt.. but i cannot accept AGAIN..
NEVER like in the PAST.. NO more...

I will forever remembers this friendship..
it from now on.. will only stay as friends.. NO MORE..

I am ok with all of u try to be back to the past..
but sorry jie kor xiaode.. i cant le..
cos i dunno wat might happen..
i dunno when thgs will happen again..

i treasure the 3 of u alot..
i dun wan thgs to happen to cause misunderstandin...
to cause conflict...
and eventualli breakin up the few of us..

I DUN WANT..
I DONT WAN TO RISK...

I AM SORRY!!

Gelare Gathering... WOooooo

Went for the Long waited Ice Cream gathering...
3 words to describe
"SUPER DUPER SHIOK !!! "

"MNL Rulez.. NAC Rox !!! "

I simply LOVES gathering..
I SimplY LOVES Outing...
I Simply LOVES All of u...
*muacks*

Alot of people turn up last nite..
at least 15 of us..
Love it... love the crowd, love the feeling, love the ambience..
Suppose to b Powerpuff.. end up to be Fortune Cats.. LOL.. =P
Stephan, Angela n Shir
Background: Stephan n Shir is a couple.. Frm WG.. Stephan is the founder of Angela.. He led Angela into WG and he went Missing.. LOL.. Missin due to TMM so can understand..
Me n my Pao Pao (Bubbles)

My Beloved Ah Kor.. Thanks for being my kor.. realli... SueAnn The mischevious, James the ah Kor.. Angela the MaFanMe n my forever dajie da.. busy womanMe n Charlene.. Comeon la ger.. dun give me that face lor.. =P
I Had a great time with all of them, chatting, discussing and sharing...

Somethgs had been settles so gonna expect more upcoming gatherings in the next 2 mths.. hopefully everythg will be smooth.. Woooo... more n more excited...

Tuesday, June 26, 2007

My lAst MambO Nite..

Was browsing through the folders in my hardisk and i came upon these..

"Zouk 04 April 07"

hmmmm.. no recap at all.. lol...
so i open the folder to take a peep...
upon seeing the photos.. i recalled some facts like...

me , dajie n ave decide to go Zouk on wed.. (mambo)
Saw lucas outside Zouk (dajie noticed him)
usual me, run up and wanna take pic..
end up.. he became our photographer..

~Me n Lucas~
~Angela, Ave, Dajie~


~i like this pic!~
I love my dajie lotz

Monday, June 25, 2007

Treasure !!

All of a sudden this word appears in my mind...

after the chat wif dajie over our lunch meet..

Hmmmm.. theres alot of thgs that we can treasure...
from living thgs to non-living things..

Theres alot of thgs in life that i wanna trease...

1. Family

They are my heart.. my life...
the main reason i live for at this stage of life..
thay gave me alot.. they taught me alot..
although alot of unhappiness (if u ppl know) but i realli treasure every single one of u..
the family getting quieter and quieter.. smaller n smaller..
abit scary lor... i dun like this feelin at all...
realli...

esp aft er yi left..
i begin to start havin the fear... as i grow older day by day...
everyone starts to leave..
i didnt expect it to b so soon.. cos they are all in their earli 60s...
but thgs alr happened.. so have to accept...
although dun like but i dun have a choice..

haiz.. family is a long topic to talk abt.. if 1 day i am in the mood..
i might reveal some facts ba...

2. Friends

after i joined WG.. my friend grp changed completeli...

whether this is a gd sign or not.. i realli dunno...
wat i know is that now.. alot of ppl realli loves me n look aft me..
feel so pampered...
they are all so close to me..
jus like my own siblings..

WG friends gave me kinship and also gave me heart ache...
some of u might already knew wat happened..
for which i do not wish to further talk about...
but its an impt lesson that i had learnt... realli

that day i met Juzjie for lunch... i remember she said smthg like:
"dun stress urself over others prob, u cant take care of everyone. Just be happy"
thanks juzjie.. i know..
but this is the weak point of angela...
cannot help... no cure de.. angela also dunno how...

i have another bunch of friends...
my love...
for yrs...
u ppl should know who you are la..
they stand by me all these while.. all the time..
Thanks gers..
realli.. i love u all...

I truly treasure all my friends..
as long as u are angela's friend.. u definitly have love...
at least the love frm me...

3. Relationship

This is now a treasure in a box..
cos its only left wif memory..
the memory that will accompany me for life..
Thanks for what u had been giving me and wat u had given me..
Love u lotz..

we had already choose to move yrs back...
but now, we are still at the same location...
i thk the oni thg that held us back n close is the feeling and the memory we had..
i dunno how it will be like in the future..
but i treasure the present.. i treasure now...

if one day, i find someone that realli treats me better than u...
i will definitly move on...
and if one day u find someone better..
congrates to u dear... move on.. u have all my wishes..
i wanna see the best for u...

4. Memory

This is finally a non-living thg..
but this is kinda linked to all of the above...

i feel that human is amazin...
cos we creates memory... and from the memory we created,
we either have sweet thoughts or we have fear...

Sweet memories accompanies u for yrs, for lifetime..
Fear Hunts u forever unless u overcome it...

regardless which type of memory u have, the are created by no one else excepts urself..
to me.. regardless if its fear of sweet...
i will forever remember..

i am a person who can forgive and i easily forget..
but memories are kept is a special compartment in my brain, in my heart...
if one fine day, someone or smthg lures it up...
the smile, the pain, the tears will replay once again...

Angela is not emotional.. Angela jus try not to reveal too much emotions...


5. Marriage

This is smthg that i do not have at all...
but i know..
one fine day, angela is gonna find her's... one that belongs to no one excepts ANGELA..

To my dearest friends who are married..
treasure it.. it takes alot of fate to find one another..
it took alot of courage to agree to b together...
it took alot of heart to try to b together...

marriage is forever..
much more than jus love love love
Had been waiting for my dear Sueann to send me pics..
After receivin it...

I FEEL SO DUMB...

See wat am i doing...
OMG... Simply look like a dumbo lor..

This is taken on my 22nd Birthday...

after work... b4 they help me to 'countdown'
I look like a kid lor in this pic..

so small...

To Follow Your Heart or NOt??

This is the problem being a living thg...
problem when u have a heart that feels..
and worse of all.. at times ur heart and brain dun work together...
and they make u super confuse...

To follow your heart or not????

tough question...
a question without a define answer or a standard answer...

I have this same problem also..

If i follow my heart; my brain tells me
"shit, u r gonna regret"

If i follow my brain; my heart will say
"i am sure gonna cry... i am INJURED!!"

how ar.. this is contradicting, confusing,neither is easily acceptable...
but some how or rather, we have to come to a decision on who to follow...
if we dun follow either; the decision will be an act on impulse..
Thats even worse..

haiz.. complicating life of a human...

to me.. mos of the time i choose to follow my heart when it comes to personal issues...
and when its applied to work.. i will follow my brain...

my heart is the angela that wans happiness;
my mind is the angela that wans to strive for the best...
both i like..
i cant do w/o either...
so as long as they dun have conflict..
Angela is satisfied..

Friday, June 22, 2007

KTV Session

Went KTV with Juz, Eugene n Calvin...
Wah....
Hmmmm... not bad ar... all can sing..

DAMN SHIOK!!

Cam whoring was fun... THis is my fav pic...







When Everyone's Singing... This is wat calvin does....
Damn BimBO... OOps... LOL

Calvin: We seriously feels that this pic looks good...
will send to u de ok...
IT had been so long since i last went to KTV le...
hmmm..
mus organise more KTV Session...
Yeah....

Thursday, June 21, 2007

"It's Not How Good You Are,

It's How Good You Want To Be"

Wednesday, June 20, 2007

Tired but i am thking

Had been havin late nights out recentli...
tiring.... but fun...
cos all are non-clubbin nites...
wat we did was sit down... eat n chit chat....
actualli nt chit chat la.. more of gossipin lor... :p

alot of new info...
gd references...

Now i realise guys getting more n more fragile compared to gers..
hmmm...
y is it so...
n guys are also gettin more n more emotional compared to gers...
OMG...
The world is changin...
sooner or later it will be "Men frm Venus, Women from Mars"
Oops...

Watched the Spider Lilies...
a movie about lesbians and tattoos...
not a bad movie...
kinda literature based...
to me, the movie is more abt responsibility and family ties compared to ger-ger r/s..

I have a qns.
Is there realli an occupation as a web ger???

anyone has any information please let me know k...

Tuesday, June 19, 2007

Wow!!

i am never afraid to admit that i am bad or lousy if i am sure of that fact myself...

i am admiting that i am an IT IDIOT!

but now, at tis very moment... i am so proud of Angela..
and i simply LOVE her so much....
LOL..
cos she finally done up the blog template..
and the skin is nuttin but ME...

THanks thanks :P

i am not that stupid after all

Monday, June 18, 2007

These few days had been kinda like thking days for me..
I see couples getting better and i had also seen couples saying Good-Bye to one another...

2 cases of seperation...

Case1: Boy LEaves Ger

Like normal stories around...
guys will say
"sorry, dont thk i am suitable for r/s, but i do LOVE u"
"Sorry, I am still not really to settle down"

wat kind of excuses..
haiz... so old school...
Dear guys, pls come up wif better breakup excuses k..
n pls... thk b4 u start a r/s...
if u r not realli... Pls let us gers off..
dun start a r/s.. Please...

I had seen so mani gers hurt...
n these incidents cause we gers to fear r/s..
pls.. save us wif only good memories please..

Aniway.. i feel that we shld say thanks to guys whom broke off using these lines also...
at least they will NO lONger waste the ger's time..

So ladies, be gracious, Say Thank You and also Good Bye..
Be strong k...

Case2: Ger Broke off with Guy

This is kinda an unexpected case..
realli.. didnt expect cos nt bcos of any furnie reason..
the oni reason is that the ger had another guy..
n she met this NEW guy ONLINE...

OMG...

her bf had been great to her.. and they are alr staying together...
another point i wanna stress is that, this ger isnt that amazin afterall...
she is jus another plain jane..
but y she have to do that to her bf that treats her so well...

These realli cause a breakdown in her bf's mind..
he is hurt terribly.. so he choose to leave...
He left the house... He left her Heart...
All alone...
I dunno where he moved to, Hope that he is fine...

Dear Gers,
if there are gd guys ard (which is kinda rare), Please treasure them...
dun hurt them and turn them evil k..
:p

Wednesday, June 13, 2007

Falling In LOve

I was readin Priscilla's Blog and i came across this title



"Falling In Love"



all of a sudden it strikes me.. making me wanna say somethg..
or i shld say, making me wanna write about this topic..

Frankly speaking, this kind of feelin seems a little lost already..
I am loosing this ability...
This can be neither gd nor bad..

Recentli i am kinda affected by people and thgs happening around me..
and i kinda feel like falling in love once again...
but this morning...
my heart sinked..
the fear took over the excitment of exploring L.O.V.E
i begin to thk back once again...

This is alwaes the case..
i dunno why.. but this had been happening to me..
unfair..

Whenever i set my mind on someone that seems ideal..
thgs will happen.. and cause my fear to run my mind..
and definitly cause me to retreat...

How?? LOL

maybe just not my luck ba..
but nvm... so time later..
angela will stand up straight, presenting a Better Me!

I dun alwaes believe in love at first sight..
but i believe that even a couple dun love one another, they can still be together...
i believe that relationship is better when its built from scratch...
cos relationships that are magical...
Starts From Nuttin and ends with Somethg.. LOL

Introduction to My New Blog

I am moving over from my previous blog to here...
A brand new blog for a Brand New Me!

This blog to me is no longer only a diary where i store my memory..
it will also be a place where i am gonna fill in thoughts n thking about vaious issues happening around...

New Place
New Things
New Me..

Thanks